How could I not see? She told me she was happy. Am I so blind to not see this coming? Was her happiness only for me? Is it just a play? Is this real? I hope it is. I hope that she loves me. I know she does. I don't think there is anyone in the world who can sound so serious and be actually lying. I am going to stop questioning that. How come she couldn't tell me. Why not? Is it me? It can't be her. She is perfect so it must be me. I should just shut up and let her talk. yes that is what I will do. I will just sit there and listen to everything If she wants to tell me something. Then I will wait. I can wait. If she can then I can too. Just as long too. sorry I am so totally swinging on thoughts but i don't care.