hey hey hey. sry i havent been able to update but ive been a lil busy recently. well im finally done w/ skol. i had my ladt final last thurs. so far i passed 4 classes... 1 just barley.. lol but i still passed. im still waiten to c what i got 4 eng. my english teacher is a fuckin idiot! last fri was my last day @ my internship. the day went by soo fast. sum of the babies that i wanted to c b4 i left werent in.. i was ssoo pissed... i mite go bck n visit but idk. im just kglad im done bc i was startin to get sick of the of the ppl there. im gunna miss my lil infants.. n it suxs even more bc they were gettin new babies n i only got 2 c 1 of them.. next sem i have to do preschool. i dont start classes till jan 11th bc all of my classes r tue n thurs n ill be @ skol from 8:15 till bout 4-4:30. i hope i do very good next sem.. i kinda of need to.. i wanna tranfers but idk how thats gunna go..if i tranfer im gunna start in jan instead of sept bc im gunna need more time to get ready. ive been ok i guess lately. i missed mt theropy appt. bc i didnt feel ike goin.. i need to make an appt. ver very soon. i cant believe xmas is sat.. WOW where has the time gone?? last fri i went to visit krissys grave.. the stupid ppl took the stick w/her info off her grave.. i like wtf.. i hate that cementary.. im just so glad that the plack isnt there yet bc i woukld have fuckin balled my eyes out.. im not ready to c it there. i mean i hope it gets put there soon but its gunna b hard. on jan. 7 its gunna b 1 yr since she has been gone.. it gunna be very sad.. i wanna bring flowers n a balloon or w/e. its still not true 2 me that she is gone.. but sooner or later its gunna have 2 b real. im not ready 2 believe it but im gunna have to. its soo cold in mass! it started snowing!! omg i hate snow! its pretty to look @ but COLD! i wish it was summer lol. ive been bascially just chillen n doin w/e. i got 2 c steve again. omg i love dat kid.. he is soo cute. im gunna miss him when he goes bck to colorado. on sun nite me, jac, steve, mike, jess n danny all went out to eat. i saw my bros ex gf n my 1/2 sista who is a stupid bitch n i hate her. she saw me n didnt say hi.. n i wasnt gunna go up n say hi.. when my father came bck she totaly stop calling and caring bout me. umm hello u stupid bitch.. ur my 1/2 sista wouldnt u wanan get to know me more n chill or w/e? im so pissed off @ her. she i s my older sista n i want her 2 b in my life n crap but i guess she wont b. o well her loss.. it kinda of suxs but w/e. um afta we went out 2 eat we decided to go to goodtimes bc there was nada else to do.. i hate that place but o well @ least i got 2 c steve! we played pool again.. there were sum guys @ a table next to us who kept lookin @ me n jac. n we knew they were bc we caught them lots of times.. steve was liek u want me 2 do sumthin bout it... we were like no lol.. just let them stare.. they can stare all they want bc they are not gettin none of this.. lol. we all took pics.. 1st me n steve took a pix of just us 2 bc he wanted 1 of us. it came out ok.. omg i look so stupid in pixs! blah! then the 4 of us decided to take the sticker pixs.. omg so funny, we retook so many times.. n still came out crappy.. we all put 1 of the stickers on my phones.. so cute. then we went ova 2 another picture thingy.. 1st me n jac took pixs.. they look soo bad..lol.. then me n steve took more. i looked soo dumb in all of em. on our last pixs WE KISSED!! omg his lips r so so small n cute. it wasnt a big kiss it was just a lil peck on the lips. i wanted more lol but didnt know if he wanted 2 lol. that was a fun nite. 2morow nite we r meeting up again.. idk what were gunna do bti i get 2 be w/ steve so idc..lol. he leaves to go bck to col next thurs! BBBOOOOO!! I dont want him 2 leave!! hes gunna send me another pixs of him!! umm 2day was cold so i decided to just stay in all day n be lazy. so hows is evry 1 gunna spend thier new years? im goin away w/sum friends 4 the nite. i hope next yr is ALOT better than this. startin in jan starts the 1 yr of deathes for lots of ppl! its soo sad. but im running out of stuff to say soo till next time..HAPPY HOLIDAYS PPLS! LUV YA!