Its not a lie if you believe it. It will hurt either way. So will someone please explain to me what the point is? At some point in life.. there will be someone in your life that you can't get out of your head. I am writing this entry to remind me of how I feel right now. Embarassed. Ashamed. Hurt. I cannot talk to him anymore. Ever again. Can't handle it. Not strong enough emotionally or physically. CAN'T. Don't argue or justify it because in the end... it is never going to be you. "Who is the first bf/gf you ever said I love you to and meant it?" "Christina"