Because I love you....you will leave me. This is the lesson fate is trying to tell me. My grandparents were all I had. When I was 13 I lost my father. When I was 18 I lost my mother. LOST ...what a word that is..what a tease.. losing something implies that you can find it again. such a delicate word used to provide such delicate hope. worthless. I tried to get closer to my father when I went home to help get the things from her home..then I left to go back to college. That night I got a phone call from the hospital letting me know where my father was. Are you going to take him from me too?? I didn't know that it was possible to feel so alone... especially for someone who is almost never alone. Is it ever alright it NOT be okay? I know that I have not been the ideal person lately.. I need to start over. I have to i'm suffocating here. Death is misleading. I am a fire caught in a storm. Using my memories like embers to keep warm. Though I may stray across you in my dreams, You will leave me in the morning.