Its happening again. Except this time, I didn't realize how much I wanted to be with him until he kissed me. Then today was like a blow to the head, heart, and stomach all at once. Will I ever fall for a guy who doesn't want her? Who wants to be with me, holding me. Who will say in truth what he said to me on Saturday "I don't want to let you go." My feelings mean nothing. How could he kiss me and then act, two days later, as if nothing had transpired between us? It makes me feel so stupid. He knows how I responded beneath his touch. He brought all of these emotions out that I can't ever remember feeling before. His kiss....I melted under his touch. If there hadn't been a bunch of people next to us who might have seen, I would have pulled him to me and kissed him again. I didn't think I liked him that way, and then Saturday night happened. He kissed me and I kissed him back. He said he didn't want to let me go. I mentioned to one of my friends how I hoped that he wasn't just saying that to say it, that he was saying that to me because he meant it. I think I was wrong. I'm such a fool. *sigh* I've always been such a fool. I just want to be loved, loved by someone who treats me the same no matter who is around. I want to love him. I want to love someone. I just want to be in love and be loved. ~~The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return.~~