Seventy-six

He keeps saying "I love you". How can I believe him? I don't know if I can trust him. He had surgery a day before he started saying those three words. Am I wrong to think that it was more the pain killers talking than him?? He's such a sweet kid when he's being..."normal" and stuff. When he's in a bad mood, he can be all surly and stuff and it's no fun being around him. Luckily that doesn't happen often, and when he's in a good mood, that's when I feel like maybe it wouldn't be so bad to be dating him steady. He flirts with me in a way that people rarely flirt with me anymore. Not that people really flirt with me anymore anyways...maybe that's why I like him to flirt with me. I have to admit, I like the attention he gives me, but I don't want to "date" him because I like the attention he gives me. If I date someone it's going to be because I like that person and not because they like me and give me attention. Steph says that when he went into work before his surgery, there were two things that he'd talk about; me and his surgery. She thinks its cute. It just worries me a little; how can he think he knows me that well? He knows the small fraction of me that is the super-flirty side. He hasn't seen the serious side, the studious-try-to-get-good-grades struggling side, the emotional side. There are so many aspects of me that he doesn't really know. He thinks he might do band. What an ideal way for him to get to know me a little better. Band is the biggest part of my life right now, the most time consuming. If I were to be dating him right now, I'd never have time for him, I'd always be doing band things. If he were in band with me, he'd understand that, and we'd be at rehersals together. It still scares me to think that if it hadn't been the painkillers from after his surgery talking, that he really does love me (unlikely). I don't know how to handle that. I've been lied to with those words on more than one occasion and I don't like to think that it might just be that with him too...
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Don't you think you're a little young to be this up tight about a boy? You're not even 18 yet.
[Anonymous]
i think i'd wait till he sees the other sides of you...but hey, that's just what i think i'd do...