Gaah so I spent three hours (practically) alone with someone that probably I shouldn't have. After all, he is more than a year younger than me. I have to admit there is attraction. With out a doubt. I feel like myself when I am around him (not that I don't when I'm around other guys, but...I dont know!). I feel like I can be however I want around him. But I don't know if he is playing with me or if he really has feelings for me. He kissed me and I asked what he felt. He said he loves me. Later he was playing one of the pianos that are in the hall by the band room, I said something about how he likes to play with things; keys (piano, like in songs), girls. And when I left I asked him if I was one of those girls he was playing with he said "No. Of course not." I don't know if I should believe him or not. I didn't think I liked him. And then today happened. I'm so sick of being confused by boys. But I know that he doesn't really like me back; not like that. Not the way I crave to be loved. I'm just someone who he makes out with. And now I am just feeling so stupid.