yea... i dont know why i am agitated... i think its just being back at school after this past weekend. luckily i go home for easter break on wednesday. so i guess anthony is not replying to me anymore... which i mean... i guess its ok to email once in awhile but at the same time space is good. i think this weekend was good for me because i put some things into perspective. one thing that has been bothering me about matt and my relationship is his smoking. i know he really is trying to quit and i think i dont give him enough credit. some comment he made saturday night bothered me. we had been to a little concert that night by a group called "Deep Incision" they are a young group gawd their vocalist is awesome in about two more years i imagine they'll make it big so look for the name. anyways... when we were getting ready for bed he said i smelled like cigarrette and i told him that now he knew how i felt...i shouldnt have said it so neither of us went to bed happy that night-but i guess there is a first time for everything. we talked after he got back from work on saturday so things are better. the weekend in general was relaxing. we rented a movie friday night and watched that. saturday we went to the concert and sunday was an easy day. iworked on school stuff and charcoaled as well as sat and talked to his mom in the kitchen for a couple of hours which seems to be a common thing between she and i. sunday night matt, two of his brothers, and myself played Haussey which i enjoy playing, only wish i were better at it so i could help whoever is my partner and win a few hands. last night was amazing though. i guess it was one of those days where you just realise what you have and... i dunno you can look at that person and never want to look away. we went to sleep around 3 i think which i guess could explain why i am a little tired but neither of us wanted to fall asleep on the other while we were talking all curled up. i miss him right now. i dont know where my roommate has run off to. its not like her to be out of the room past 11. ah well. ugh my computer is acting up gtg