I saw Josh today... He going to New York City for a week and then going to Boston to live. I'm gonna miss him. I don't really understand why he's doing this. His son is here and he told us that he would never move away from his son. I was in church today and all I wanted to do was cry. I couldn't stop thinking about it. I can't help thinking... What would have happened if I told him? Would he have stayed? Would I have ruined the friendship? Was there a friendship to ruin? When he was over today, I was telling him thinks he should go see in Boston and all I wanted to do is tell him "I love him" and that he should stay. This sucks!!!