what I wrote last night. I want to explain more but I'm not sure of why.

So the whole thing with Samantha started with Rob texting her and she texting and then her ringing him - he never rings people as it costs him his hard earned pennys. Anyways we had a four month old daughter when he decided to take a weeks holiday with her in her home town. Now I want to note her that she had a long term boyfriend who she claimed she was much in love with. Now the interesting thing is she knew how I would feel. She went through something similar ish that hurt her. If you read her post falling with regret you'll see. The parts of it I want to relay from it are:

Leave him alone.

Can't you see you've already destroyed any truth and any trust I had left?

Can't you see my love for him?

You want him.

But I want him more.

You never will know what he means to me.

You'll never know.

Brendon who was also on this network (falltopieces) went to Wellington to be with the afore mentioned VIenna (it is so weird how this all is connected) and funnily enough he was there when Rob and I went to Wellington and they all hung out. Also funnily enough was it was on that trip I fell pregnant with our first daughter.

So Rob went to Christchurch and had sex with Samantha while I was left at home with the baby. So I moved out without telling him. And I had his stuff moved out too. And it was a great feeling. All my friends were there for me, not to mention his own mother telling me it was about time I did this as he is a prick. ANyway he came back after that week and I asked him if he had feelings for her and he said he loved her. I took this as he had found someone new and it was actually over between us and I was actually alright with that. But no he didn't know which one of us he wanted. For 4 months we saw each other occasionally while all the time he was secretly going out with Samantha and trying to keep it from me. I'm not dumb Rob. She then claimed she was pregnant and he actually considered going to live with her and raising someone else's baby will leaving his fatherless. Then apparently she had an abortion and straight after got pregnant with his baby (or so she claimed).

I originally saw her and him as the perpetrator but towards the end of there thing when he was using her and I both I saw her as a victim.

Rob thinks that he made it all better by choosing me when he could have easily had a life down there. I'm unsure of whether he wanted me to say oh sorry I didn't think of that so thank you for choosing me. It wasn't a game show. To this day he still thinks he didn't do anything wrong and so has not apologized.

I'm glad she has moved on and found happiness. Now it's my turn.