I can't exactly describe how I feel at the moment. All I can say that it's indeed abnormal. I haven't felt this way. It's not pleasant. I feel as if my heart and mind are heavy and are about to explode. I can't think straight. My heart's hurting and I can't talk to anyone. I want to cry, let everything go, but I can't. It just won't happen. Not even my music is helping me at the moment.. I want to scream. Scream at everything and everyone that's holding me back from anything and anyone. I don't want to be here anymore. I just want to leave..at least for a while. I've handled too much. I want everything to go back to where it was before. Where everyone was happy. Everyone was there. My mouth feels frozen. Words just stop at my throat and I can't get them out. Not even to explain how I feel. Because I don't exactly know how to explain it. Please stop.