Things have been getting better. Not great..but better than before. I told him how I felt about whatever happened. And I just totally blew up on him. My message to him was full of anger and provocation/accusation and pleading. He got mad, but he didn't blow up on me like I did to him. Which makes him a better person than myself. But I apologized for doing so. And he said he understood. We're friends, but I can't get over it. I won't be able to for a long time.

Birthday's soon. I hope it's good.