5:20am Thurs. May 11, 2006 This sucks so bad. Ok. Brett told me that on sunday Jake and Jenna (my b/f, his g/f) were holding hands at church. Brett said that Jenna sounded really happy about it. Brett mentioned to Jenna the fact that she and Jake would both be going to Canada on the Band Trip. Jenna said, "I know," in a really enthusiastic voice, according to Brett. Then he told me that Jenna could not promise that nothing would happen between her and Jake. (I'm in tears by this time.) So Brett broke up with her. So yesterday (after I found all of this out) during 2nd period I used Michelle's phone to call Rick's cell. I asked if he could let me talk to Jake. So when I spoke to Jake, I asked him what was going on between him and Jenna. He said "Nothing." I don't remember the rest of the conversation. The class was loud and the signal was bad. Later that day, I was thinking about the whole hand-holding-at-church thing. Well they were at church. And people hold hands at church, right? So maybe Jake and Jenna were just doing the church-hand-hold-in-a-group ritual and Jenna just made it sound like it was more than it actually was. But I was told about a letter or letters between Jake and Jenna. She said she liked him. He said he liked her but didn't want to hurt me or ruin our relationship or something. I hate all this he said-she said crap. It's so confusing. Then last night Brett called me and said that Jenna called him to bitch him out for calling Rick 5 times to talk to her. Jenna said That's what Rick told her. That pissed Brett off, now he wants to kick Rick's arse for lying, but Jenna could be lying about Rick, right? Oh, and get this: That bitch had the nerve to saythat what happens between her and Jake is no one's business but their own and that brett had "no right" telling me anything. Bullshit. I want to choke that nasty chicken neck of hers. Jake is MY BOYFRIEND!! I will not stand by and let her waltz in and steal Jake form me. Who does that slut think she is??Then, later, Brett called me again and said that Jake was as good as dead or something. "Why?" I asked. He then told me that he was told that Jake didn't want/like me anymore. I almost died, right there on the phone. I couldn't hear if he had talked to Jake directly or if someone told him that Jake said it. I lost the signal and got ready for bed.I cried myself to sleep as quietly as I could. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 5:43am And another thing. I shouldn't have called Rick to talk to Jake. I feel bad for making him a go-between and getting him tangled in this mess, he doesn't deserve this. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 6:53am Just talked to Brett. Last night he talked to Rick. Rick was the one who told Brett that Jake said he didn't like me anymore. Well, hell. I don't know if Rick would lie... I gotta talk to Jake. Face to face.