Fuck this world.

It has been a long ass time since I have updated this shit........I dont really have much to say....but hey I updated tee hee.

Well Battle of the Bands sucked complete ass...I sucked soooooooo bad, I am pretty depressed about it, oh well we have seabreeze in like 4 days. Later.

OMG.......today sucked I got a viral infection or some shit like that, I cant really remeber right now because of the medicine. I had a good weekend, for the most part. I got to spend lots of time with Rikki,(I Love You baby)and I even got to spend time with my sister, which was cool. I am gonna go now cause I am pretty fucked up.

SEABREEZE METAL LOUNGE!!!!!!!!!! my band is playing fucking seabreeze the 24 we are going to be the last band on, and that kinda means headlining..We go on at 12:30 at night....HELL YEAH!!!!!!!!!!! WHOEVER CAN GO SHOULD SUPPORT US...... its in Daytona Beach........FUCK YES!

Untitled Doomsayer Through the eyes of the matyr without death, He shone forth with a heaven once lost. He stood against the many. The fire rages on to leave oblivion. A body will cast a shadow, That will darken the souls of the world. Leaving a trail of hatred in its wake, Breathing destruction to the hearts of the innocent. Bowing down in love to the antithesis of him. And so it shall be, that death will rain from above. And he and his followers will stand to meet it. He will speak doom upon whosoever lies before him. Because she comes with the end. Because she rides with implosion. He must fight her deception. Now it is a matter of transcience of life, survival. And so it shall come to pass, he will survive or die trying. Bleed the label beyond forever. Bleed strength beyond forever. Bleed determintaion beyonf forever. Do these and bring life to all of this hellful wasteland. Do these and it shall be a beacon of hope. -----Daryl Ward-----

What the fuck is wrong with this shit???? I dont understand, I dont know why it has to be this way, what the fuck is going on??? nevermind I dont feel like talking about it.

I hate the world so much today. I have had a bad few days lately and all I wanna do is make everything and everyone go away except for my sisters and my finacee, I just want to be happy for one day....just one, but no, shit has to happen everyday....I love Rikki so much and I am so happy to have her, so dont think its her, its other things......I dont even feel like talking about them.....and my grades suck ass.....Fuck man, why is my life falling apart these past couple of days?????

yes I like this song, sorry. Today was horrible but I dont want to talk about it, the people who need to know do....I was so...arghh all day, but thats not the best way to put it. I think Mac hates me now. I dont know why, I guess she still thinks I am spreading that joke around, but I only told 2 people, and I told both of them that it was a joke....I dont know, oh and she was standing right next to me when I told the 2 people. I dont know what she thinks, maybe its that I am trying to be vindictive towards her...oh well....i am gonna go now I love Rikki and my 2 sister's even though one seems like they dont want to talk to me.....

This morning was wierd I must say, I felt kinda like no one wanted to be around me at all.....it was like all the people that I normally talk to and hang out with in class just didnt want to hang out with me, I dont know maybe I am just being a tad too paranoid, I have been doing that a lot lately...ohh and Rancid comes out with a new cd and they are going on tour soon...so that made Rikki happy, which was cool....and so did that car show yesterday, cause yeah we passed by one in Orange Park. but yeah I have had a wierd day today. later I love you Rikki.

wow I am updating...yay (sarcasm inserted) what a day this was. pretty fuckin shitty. So much shitty stuff is going on with me, and it has been especially today but oh well..I honestly dont feel like talking about it, so later.

I am sitting here in second period doing nothing waiting....and waiting....this class really sucks sometimes. Have you ever had one of those days where you are really paranoid about people around you, or their intentions? Yeah thats me today.....isnt it great? This song is awesome I have been completely obsessed with it.....Trivium is like my new 3rd favorite band.....I love Rikki...gonna go find something to do I guess.

I feel like shit, I hate my parents...I hate them so much. How can they be this way to me? How could he infect my mom so much that she has become so controlled by him so much that she hurts me in the process, it doesnt make sense. How could I have let this happen....was this my fault? She sticks up for him and makes excuses as to his shitty ways...she says hes right sometimes and others she just says its all my fault...that i should just do what he says when he says it, then I can avoid the fighting..am I just supposed to lay down and let my emotions be crushed inside of me, am I supposed to give up and let myself be hurt more? Am I just supposed to become the unquestioning follower who cannot comprehend the idea of standing up for one's self? I cant, I will not be defeated like that...

"Should I regret or ask myself 'Are you dead yet?'" wow this week has sucked a monkey ass with a crowbar. I have done nothing for the most part I had to work a few of the days doing shit for my uncle. I havent been able to see Rikki, which sucks ass, and last night made me feel like a fuckin piece of steaming hot shit thats been run over by a semi carrying my.....nevermind I will stop there...whatever, and then Kyle left last night and said he would be back but, guess what nothing....so I am sitting here at his house by my fucking self. Whatever I just want it to be later today...or tomorrow, because that would be cooler. Whatever if I have to write a description of my spring break for Mr. Pilling I am just going to write IT SUCKED ASS in big letters. The only good thing is I got a razorblade, that made me happy...but that is about it except for my umm uses for it...well whatever I dont feel like doin this fuckin shit anymore so i am gonna go.

Dude fuck this weekend. Today sucked ass. I had to work and eight hour day, and I get off go over to my girlfriends to pick up something, and Someone I despise is standing there....that bitch is lucky he ran off when he did. And anyway as soon as I got home I had more work to do around the house. Then some other stuff happened that I got mad about. Blah Blah Blah. Then I find out that David and Kyle went to Sam Ash without me. Yeah whatever fuck that....fuck me sideways and running.

I am blah right now. I had an emotional breakdown last night...isnt that great kids????? But hey it wasnt that bad....meh whatever....I have had a horrible day. Fuck man, this week sucks for the most part....ehh I am gonna go do stuff now to you know think about stuff.

I hate the word fuck but yet I love it so very much. yeah the concert was cool. I got hurt pretty badly. "It started as a whisper Now try to dodge this roar Unified, the most forceful way to go Waste this one? It's up to you!"

FUCK ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK ahh nevermind. Depressed is not the word for what I am now. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK FFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!

why in gods name did all of this have to hit me at once all in one day? yeah and finding out not ten seconds ago that my grandad had alsheimers or however the fuck you spell it my mom and Al are mad at me the whole Mike and Mary thing. my band is fighting so much shit.......I am breaking down...I am gonna go...I am too depressed to do this.

I hate first period. What the fuck was with that dating violence shit? I knew because I cared about Rikki that I would get shit from that. Ohh but I forgot there are some very similar things about that abuser that you are like. FUCK ALL OF YOU THAT HAVE NO FAITH IN ME. Ok I appreciate the people who are concerned about Rikki, but what the fuck? I really dont like being talked about by people who dont know me. Why can love be mistaken for a possible violent person? Why is it that when I try to be a good boyfriend this kind of thing happens to me? Whatever the people who really know me know I wouldnt do that, so fuck everyone else. My father told me always be strong son Don't you ever cry You find the pretty girls and then you love them Then you say goodbye I never dreamed that you would leave me But now you're gone I never dreamed that I would miss you Woman won't you come back home I never dreamed that you could hurt me And leave me blue I've had a thousand, maybe more But never one like you I never dreamed I could feel so empty But now I'm down I never dreamed that I would beg you Woman I need you now It seems to me I took your love for granted It feels to me that this time I was wrong, so wrong Oh Lord now I feel so lonely I say woman won't you come back home I tried to do what my father taught me But I think he knew Someday that I would find one woman like you I never dreamed that it could feel so good, Lord That two could be one I never knew about sweet love, Lord So woman won't you come back home Oh baby won't you come back home Love by ruby maeYour nameYour partnerYou two areSoulmatesYour meeting was byChoiceThey are yourStrengthYou are theirShining starYour love willBe unconditionalQuiz created with MemeGen!