ok...i wish something really cool would just happen to me!!! like anything...i just want something totally unexpected and really gnarly to happen. like just win those blink tickets they are giving away on the radio or win the Vator/Cyrus contest or get a spontanious IM or email somehow from a rock star!!! WHY CAN'T SOMETHING JUST THAT COOL HAPPEN TO ME!!! i know why...b.c i am not that lucky!!! well yeah, i am bummed b.c this weekend things were cool but not as cool has they could have been!!! well matt ended up not being able to go to the movies with ashlie and kyle and i and that really sucked, but the cool thing was that bethany went instead. then when we got home we rearranged out retire room and yeah that was fun!!! and we slept on the air mattress (for no reason) and played **tee-ter tot-er**(that's an original from the mind of chelsea). then today was cool b.c we all just sat around and i watched the SP DVD and all was well. my birthday is only like...16 days away and i will be 15!!! i can't wait until that weekend b.c i really want to see jessie and i haven't talked to her since...uhh...last tuesday b.c her GAY STUPID computer exploded or something!!! i just thought of 2 really good ideas for songs to write about...yeah i will remember!! i really hate school and i just can't wait until summer. today my mom sat me down and wanted to talk about my "future". well i told her that i wanted to be a musican and she is like "look at jimmie (my step-dad). he has been a musican since he was 13 and he hasn't earned a single dime from it." so yeah now she is like banning me from AIM at night, even though she is really bad about enforcing the rules she make, so that i can focus on my school work b.c she "knows" i can do better. I HAVE A FREAKIN 3.4 GPA AND SHE STILL THINKS I CAN DO BETTER. see... parents sometimes just really bother me. i really want to be a musican, but my parents aren't too thrilled with that. why can't i have a dream, why can't i have a goal to do something i really want to do. i don't want to be one of those people who float around doing what everyone else wants to do...i want to do what will make me happy!!! well this entry went all over the place but it's finally at an end....