well todays been another fantastic day. yeah right. its been goin on too long now and im really not copin with these feelings of sadness, anger, guilt and blame. it would be so nice to be able to be me again to be happy and not give a shit about things. im too scared to say anything to a doctor which is pretty daft with me bein a student nurse i know whats up wi me just cant face talkin to someone about it. its just easier not saying it sometimes. its amazing how alone u can feel sometimes even though loads of people are around you. well on the plus side a pretty cute guy is interested in me and he is lovely but i dont know if i can cope wi all ive cant look after meself at the moment.