cant believe how sunny it is here this morning its well nice!! shame i dont feel like enjoying it. well ive been here on me own since yesterday shes not comin back till monday nite sometime. o how i fuckin love it here. were movin house in about 6 weeks now cant wait. theres gonna be 6 of us altogether which will be so much better than just 2 of us or well just me as it seems to be all the time. ive been really pissed off this week. just felt so lonely again. think it might be cos i went home last weekend and loved it. its a bit of a shock comin back here where i hardly see any of me so called friends-not that theres many of em to see. its my birthday on the 28th gonna be 20 can u believe it. im gonna be proper grown up. im gonna be spendin me birthday on me own too which has kinda upset me a bit. me and linz were supposd to be goin out but shes wait for it goin home on the fri. yeah cheers love. its just cos matthews got a stupid footie thing and she cant miss it cos he wont like that. so im gonna go home on the 29th morning and im off out wi me mates from back home which should be fun-if last weeks to go on!! me mam was pissed of when i told her she really doesnt like linz any more. its like she said surely she can give the footie thing a miss. its not like its even for her. one of me mates from back home stopped here a while ago and linz just ignored her and was rude to her. just cos we aint all posh and rich like she is. its no reason to ignore people. maybe im bein all immature and stupid over it but i just thought that after everything thats happened this year she would be there for me for a day thats supposed to be happy for me. after all shes never there for me when im goin through shit