didnt go into uni today again. ive not been in for a while. oops i havnt actually told uni yet that im gonna be leaving-i need my bursary till i get a job!! ive definaltly decided now im leaving. ive seen a few jobs which offer training so ive emailed them and its a case of waiting now. i need to really tell me parents too. there gonna be soooo pissed off im dropping out. i was never expected to ever get into uni im not the worlds most brightest person but i did and its just not for me. the thing is too is that me mam n dad have helped me out loads wi things like money and buying things for me house. which im really grateful for. im gonna have to pay em back its only fair i guess. its funny cos some of my so called mates seem to acting funny around me since i said i was leaving uni. there kinda really cold to me and ignoring me. i was supposed to be in uni this morn and i set my alarm to get up i slept through it for an hour an half, and my battery had gone dead on me fone. so anyway i ended up cuttin this morning felt so lost and shit really. im at the doctors in a hour. o joy i hate the place!! 7.30 evening well i went to the drs on my own. i have a fear of doctors surgeries cant usually go on me own!! .hes put me on meds for me depression and im doin this pyschological therapy thing dont really know what it is yet so ill have to wait and see