Hey love, just wanted to leave you a little note! A friendly reminder that I LOVE YOU MORE AND MORE EVERYDAY! ^_^ Oh yea I checked your email for you and I got the confirmation number for the Dredg show, it said that the tickets were return to sender so you will have to pick them up at the box office with your picture ID and the credit card used to purchase them. I printed out the paper so that I have the code for you. Here's just a little bit of whats to come for you!!! Love ya always and forever, SUNSHINE (and I love our emo fetus)

http://www.kornworld.de/downloads/mp3/Korn_Twisted_Transistor_(kornworld.de).mp3 New Korn song out. I hate it and this is from a HUGE Korn fan. It has been reported that the other songs are good though. I hope so because this is the most pathtic piece of trash I have ever heard and this is from my fav band of all time. Oh and listen to dredg ^_^

Im gone. I dont want this diary anymore. Just like the lady in a blue dress, You've got cigarettes on your breath. Hair spray and some cheap perfume. I'll put a little sour in your sweet, You've got so much fucking tongue in cheek. You want what you could never have. You say that you want respect Well then you better get some for yourself. 'Cause all that I see right now, Is someone who's lost and insecure. So you say that I am rated X, You suffer from the lack of sex. Black heart and your lipstick smeared. Your points are trite and I'm too sober To deal with you running over Your same pathetic cliche lines. You say that you want respect Well then you better get some for yourself. 'Cause all that I see right now, Is someone who's lost and insecure. Don't try to be cute with me, 'Cause I know you hate yourself And you'd end your stupid life now But you're too spineless Just like the lady in a blue dress You've got cigarettes on your breath, Hair spray and some cheap perfume. You say that you want respect Well then you better get some for yourself. 'Cause all that I see right now, Is someone who's lost and insecure. "You're Cute When You Scream" (Fuck with my heart) I'll teach you what it's like. (To be so used) That you'll have to clean. That dirt stuck in Your plastic finger nails. And just the scent of you is enough (To make me sick) And all I know is revenge is sweet when... You know that you are worthless And I am better than The games that you play princess. (I've played) and always win. (I'll take my time) To slowly plot your end. (And now I will) Spit bullets with my pen. And all I know is you're cute when you scream. You know that you are worthless And I am better than The games that you play princess. (I've played) and always win. I'll take you to the top, Of this building and just push you off. Run down the stairs so I can see your face As you hit the street, the street, the street, the street. You know that you are worthless And I am better than The games that you play princess. (I've played) and always win. (This time I win. So here's your kiss goodbye.) "Angela Baker And My Obsession With Fire" I won't forget the day that, that I came to And I started thinking that there's more Than just perfect prom queens and silver spoons And all I ever wanted was someone to knock me back to the bliss of ignorance 'Cause I feel like running head first into traffic. And so I'm here to say That thoughts in bed with pain. I won't forget the day that, that I found God In a kitchen knife now and on my arm So paint the pale white floor with, with my red life And tell myself this pain is the pain I love As I swallow the pills of happiness And you watch me fall like New York in an earthquake And so I'm here to say That thoughts in bed with pain. I stand outside my pretty house I light a match to start the fire I call the cops to let 'em know It's 22 Walthery Ave. I thought I wanted this. I thought I wanted this. (I'm here to say) I said I wanted some more attention I thought I wanted a story ending. (I love the pain, I hate the pain) I just give in. (I love the pain, I hate the pain) I think that the truth is I'm scared I think that I'm just scared to live I think that the truth is I'm scared I think that the truth is I'm everything that I hate.

Well some other asshole might be dating Tricia. He is a million times better then me. And frankly I wouldn't be fuckign surprised that Tricia in the last hour has fucking forgotten me. Im glad that she spent until 3 in the morning with this amazing person. I hurt but well it about time until everything is striped from me. Well fuck it. Two years for nothing and 5 years together is gone. Oh well.

I want to see Dredg live real bad. I know they wont come down here for awhile. But i can prey and hope. Please please coem to miami. I want to see you.

Well I like this girl named natalie. She is nice but I am having problems with her, which is a long story. She isnt prettier then Tricia per se. Like there both beautiful but in different ways. Basically the only real thing Natalie has over Tricia is that if I went out with Natalie I dont have to sit here wondering if she won't be there for the next week. I still love Tricia but god damn it she has started alot of shit. Fuck I wish she was "normal". I fucking hate doing the "dating game". Fucking christ. Oh well it seems lonly holidays are up ahead.

In the wide world of dating, there are many options. Do you go for the flashy guy with the smooth smile, or the dude in the corner typing away on his laptop? The following are reasons why I think my fellow females should pay more attention to the quiet geeks and nerds, and less attention to the flashy boys. 1.) While geeks and nerds may be awkward, they’re well-meaning 9 out of 10 times. That smooth dude with the sly grin and the spider hands? Wonder what HIS intentions are... plus, I’ve never had a geek guy not call me when he said he would. Score major points THERE. 2.) They’re useful. In this tech-savvy world, it’s great to have a b/f who can make your laptop, desktop, and just about anything else that plugs into a wall behave itself. 3.) They’re more romantic than they’re given credit for. Ok true, their idea of romance might be to make up a spiffy web-page with all the reasons why they love you, with links to pics of you and sonnets and such... but hey. It lasts longer than flowers, plus you can show your friends. 4.) Due to their neglected status, there are plenty to choose from. You like ‘em tall and slender? There are plenty of geeks/nerds who are. You like ‘em smaller with more meat on their bones? Got that too. 5.) They’ve got brains. Come on now, how can intelligence be a bad thing? 6.) Most are quite good at remembering dates. Like birthdates and such, especially if they know it’ll make you happy. Due again to their neglected status, they’re more attentive than guys who “have more options”. Plus, with all that down time without a steady girlfriend, they’ll likely have mental lists of all the things they’d love to do once they GOT a girlfriend. 7.) Sex. Yep. Sex. I’m not really familiar with this myself, but I’ve friends who’ve been intimate with geek guys and it’s raves all around. They say a virgin wrote the Kama Sutra... all that time thinking about sex, imagining sex, dreaming about sex, (they are male after all) coupled with a desire to make you happy? Use your imagination. 8.) They’re relatively low-maintenance. Most can be fueled on pizza, Twinkies and Mt Dew. No complicated dinners needed here, so if you’re not the best cook, eh. Can you order a pizza? 9.) Most frequent bars as often as slugs frequent salt mines. You won’t have to worry much about your geek guy getting his “groove” on with club hotties because, frankly, he’ll be too busy rooting around under his computer wondering where that spare cable went. You won’t have to worry about him flirting with other women because, 9 out of 10 times, he’ll zip right by them in a perfect b-line towards the nearest electronics store. I’ve seen this happen. Me: “Eww. Victoria Secret’s Models... They’re so skinny. How is that feminine? You can see her ribs!” Geek Guy: “ooooooo...” Me: “Hey!” *notices he is staring lustfully towards the computer store* Geek Guy: “What?” Me: “Never mind...” 10.) Although he may not want to go to every outing with you, you can arrange swaps, as in, you’ll go to his Gamer Con dressed as an elf princess if he’ll take you to the ballet. Plus, if he doesn’t want to go someplace with you, you won’t have to worry much about what he’s up to. You’ll probably come home to find him asleep on his keyboard in a sea of Mt. Dew cans with code blinking from the screen. It’s ok. He’s used to this. Just toss a blanket over him and turn out the light. 11.) His friends aren’t jerks. I can’t stress this enough. You’ll more likely get “Omg! A GIRL!! Can I see?!” than “Hey hot stuff back that ass up here and let me get some grub on...” They’re awkward geeks too and will, 9 times out of 10, treat you with the utmost respect and, more than likely, a note of awe. A cute girl picked one of their clan to date? It could happen to them! Hope! Drag some of your single girlfriends over, open up a pack of Mt. Dew, crack open the DnD set and get working. Nothing impresses geek guys more than a girl who can hack-n-slash (well ok maybe if she can code... a geek can dream). 12.) They’re rarely if ever possessive. They trust you, so you can be yourself around them. You like to walk around the house in a ratty t-shirt for comfort? He won’t care. He does too! They won’t get pissy if you don’t wear make-up or don’t want to bother primping your hair. If you gain a few pounds, they won’t try their best to make you feel like crap. 13.) They’re usually very well educated. Physics majors and the like. See #5. You won’t have to listen to him blathering on about his car (ok maybe a little), he’ll have loads of other interesting things to talk about. Politics, world events, how much the chicken burgers down at the local place rock, so long as you douse them in hot sauce... 14.) You’ll almost never have to hear, “Yaw dawg whazzap!!” plop out of their mouths. Unless it’s in jest. They spell properly, use correct punctuation, and are able to tell the difference between the toilet and the floor. They almost never get “wasted”, so you won’t have to worry about coming home to find him and his friends passed out on the floor amidst a pile of beer bottles. Mt. Dew cans, perhaps... 15.) And the final reason why geeks and nerds make great boyfriends: They actually give a damn about you. Not how you look (though that’s a plus), not how skinny you are, not how much make-up you primp yourself up with, but they like you for you. That kind of thing lasts longer than “DaMN baby you got a fine ass!!!” Believe me.

Is it no surprise that when I hate you so much the sky turns black and it starts to rain. I find that funny. I cant wait until you come back so we can have fun. As fun as having foot stump you dead. Most relationships have walks on the beach but no not us. That would be too idle. No we just run away from each other and of course you steal from me. Well thats fine but if I see you first your parents will have nice surpise. Better prey I dont see you first.

To my sunshine If anything I am not happy with your "i dont regret my choices". The reason why we are no longer close friends just hating each other friends is because of you and souly you. I hope the crack fiends, rapiest, scum of the earth kiss you good night because I will not be there for you. I dated you for so long because I was holding on to what was left of you. I am still waiting for the Tricia that I fell in love with. I think she is long dead in that shell you call a body. Good bye love. I will miss you. I shall be lonly but you will to. Javier

Well....I let tricia sneak into my room so she has a place to stay for the night...never done that.

I hope you are having a haoppy new year whereever you are Tricia.I know im not...didnt even try to call. I cried and I have a pain in my chest like someone ripped out what was there...my heart. Just an empty void there now. I did not want to spend our year and 7th month like this.

Tricia please I dont care. Just come home I swear things will be ok if you come home. Or at least call me. Just dont do anything that will hurt me....I dont want to you with other men....and I dont want you to kill yourself...I swear I am not going to leave you......Please just come home. Or at least tell your parents to pick you up. Please

I waited for her call....then i remembered that she isnt comign back..not for a long time....Im lonly

Dear Tricia, I want to tell you that yes I am mad....and I am hurt. I know I have told you that I will brak up with you if you continue what you do but....I can not bare the thought of living with out you. I still hope inside that we will have a nice life together. I am still in love with you and I want you back. I do not have much to look forward in life. You were the center of everything I did. I just hope you read this before you do too much damage on yourself. I love you so much still. Just please come home. Javier

What can I say? I have not been on here for a long time. Not alot of you read my shit anyway so whatever. IM working at publix now and the work is steady. I am doing ok I guess. I have finally realized that there is no god. I am tired of people pushing it down my throat. I am planning to et back on te wahammer thing and I bought a new platoon box. I have alot of work to do. I have been using ebay now and it pretty cool.....One thought before i end. Nothing ever comes out as planned. Enough said.

Take the quiz: "What does your birth month reveal about you?"JulyFun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood.Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets.Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studyin

I have finally made my computer with my stepbro and it is fucking fast. I am enjoying it fully. I played for awhile and now I am going to study.

I AM 17% GEEK!I wanna be a geek. But I'm not. Why would I even want to be one. Do I think it's fun? I should try writting an online test application at 1 am in my underwearTake the GEEK test at Fuali.com

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