Well I like this girl named natalie. She is nice but I am having problems with her, which is a long story. She isnt prettier then Tricia per se. Like there both beautiful but in different ways. Basically the only real thing Natalie has over Tricia is that if I went out with Natalie I dont have to sit here wondering if she won't be there for the next week. I still love Tricia but god damn it she has started alot of shit. Fuck I wish she was "normal". I fucking hate doing the "dating game". Fucking christ. Oh well it seems lonly holidays are up ahead.