well i havent written (typed?) in a while so there as been loads happening but i cant really be assed typing it all, also its holidays so its all a comfortable blur of days to me. My mum told me this morning that she could find my diary by simply typing my name into google, this is NOT GOOD NEWS!!! Mom, if you are reading this...please stop! Thank you. Does anyone know of a way u can make your diary private to everyone except sitD users? I have a kind of private diary but i cant be assed with it anymore so i think i might just write whatever i want in here regardless of who reads it, to anyone who disaproves of whats in here, i am who i am if u dont like what i think or do then its your problem. I think i have skrewed up with James, well maybe not skrewed up but well he did something and i reacted insensitively, i guess u could put it, if i tried to explain my reasons for how i reacted i would have to say what he did and i cant do that so i cant really explain myself...now i know why i have a private diary. oh well anyway James, if ur reading this (which i think u will do) im sorry ok, next time i see you i will try to explain myself but i dont think i will be able to clearly and that will just make everything worse. Um ok anything else? Schoool starts on Tuesday, along with my new plan of clean living. good food, no alcohol etc. well maybe not none, just less, and not all good food, some choclate too (btw i know my punctuation is appauling just excuse me) but anyway, maybe i should call it clean(er) living. Dont know if im gonna be able to wake up at 7:30am! Bruce is having a party tonite, i dunno how cool its gonna be but since its the last day b4 school starts that anyone can have a party i think i will go anyway and see whats happening. I dont know who is going, Laura, Jo maybe and maybe Omi and Rachel too. i really shouldnt dislike her (Rachel) as much as i do, i mean i sit beside the girl in 2 classes!!! Well i know she doesnt really like me so i guess its fair but i mean she has never been mean to me or anything apart for some slip ups like: R:are you coming swimming? J:No, i dont think so R:Good...i mean... J:I know, never mind. man i dont know, she hasnt exactly endeared herself to me lately either, by no fault of her own i must add, maybe its just jealousy or something. Thats always my moms excuse for girls not liking eachother, tho i cant really think of anything she has that i want...hmmm a big brother maybe? enough of that. thanx Lou for the "well done" i miss you dude!!!! :'( u cant leave school!!then i will never see u - EVER!!! i was reading Gina's texts yesterday, wait lemme give u some background info first so u can get what im on about... --------------------------------- Before i started going out with Louis he was kinda seeing this girl called Carrie-Anne, well they werent even seeing each other really they just had a fling at a dance and they were txting eachother and stuff. ANYWAY so i didnt even know who she was till he told me about her (cos we were friends b4 we went out) so i dont know what she was like or anything. then just before we went out he told her he wasnt interested so she was kinda pissed off at me but then i started talking to her like totally in a different context and i think she is really cool, actaully i think she is very much like me but thats beside tha point. so i think she is really cool but i think she still doesnt like me very much. --------------------------------------- ok back to the main point... she was txting Gina and i read Gina's texts (with permission) and she was saying hiw she misssed him and how she felt when she saw me and him together and i just felt so sorry for her, man i can just imagine how crap it must be for her. i even had a fleeting idea of leaving him so she could have him, i mean she did get there first right? i dont want her to think i feel sorry for her tho, people dont like to be felt sorry for. anyway i came to my senses, i mean if he doesnt want her theres not much i can do right? u people prob think im really weird!!! ooh i got my exam results back, i was v impressed cos i expected not as good...i got 4 1's and 3 2's. nobody will understand that except the v few scotish people on here but well 1 is the best u can get and 7 is a fail so u can figure it out i think i have typed a sufficient amount of crap to make up for the past week or so so i will go xxx ps. damn sitD killed my entry again, luckily i copied it first :D ~~~~~~~~~~EDIT~~~~~~~~~~ just to say i dont really dislike Rach anymore, i have kind of made an effort to get to know her and she is cool :)