whew i havent upsated in a while i definately will start updating more!! well me and Ryan decided not to go out because we would never see each other but we might get together when one of us can drive...molly was going out with paul but she brok up with him becuase she likes bryan...:( yes bryan as in my ex.....i told her i didnt have feelings for him anymore..but of course i kinda do..but it doesnt matter i probly wouldnt ever go back out with him again so...tonight is the dance at st. agnes im leaving practice early so we can go pick up molly...i hope my mom doesnt bitch at me like she did this morning..it was so bad i went to school and went into the bathroom and cried..it was bad and my teachers like knew something was wrong beacuse there like sam are you ok? it was bad but devin told me he was gunna ask me out tonight..i was like oh ok? it was funny well i g2g the friggin bells gunna riing..i have Lentz next oh great! i just want school to end so i can go to practice then go get molly then just go to the dance and have fun...well im out bye!

hmm...i havent written in this in a friggin long time!! haha well paul knows i like him now..idk he acts like he likes molly and molly acts like shes mad that i like him so idk...oh well ryan miller likes me i guess...i havent met him in person..but he goes to wyloo..he might go to the movies tonight so...i cant wait til xmas..on tuesday the 27th there is a basketball tourney and josh wilbur(ooo hotness) is playing in it and we are all going to watchhim ...and me and brook and guinna be rocking in new clothes..and me with my ipod(hopefully) im so excited its gunna be awesome..well im gunna go so bored!

alright well...duh of course i still miss bryan..alot but..im dealing with it but one of like my bestest buddies in the whole wide world, paul hugo...i think i like him...he is so awesome though i talk to him on that phone all the time..he goes to wyalusing and we always say love you love you too(even when i was w. bryan we did...)and he'll b elike sam do you still love me? and ill be like oh yes.. your pastramilicious...lol its so funny..an dhe calls me saminator..i call him paulinator...idk..im falling for him though...i spent the weekend with my bestest friend Molly Loo Hoo a.k.a Molly Ross it was soooo much fun...we talking to ryan miller and paul on the phone..and the night before i was talking to paul on the phone an dhe's like i havent kissed anyone yet and i was like seriously ?! and hes like shut up..and then at mollys hes like i got my first kiss today from Kami(shes a slut) and me an dmolly were lik uh! we wanted to give you ur first kiss!:P and hes like well im going out with her...then like the whole night i was just thinking about it..i was in deep thought..so was molly..about her jeff...i love her..hopefully we hang next weekend her dogg yis a little brat...molly has a bruise because she like attacked us...and i rode a sled between two trees(close call) and into prickers!! there were sooo many awesome things..but i cant name them all!! well im gunna go watch survivor!! Molly Loo is a hot sexii babe! Paul Hugo is sooo pasramilicious!

well bryan broke up with me because people are spreading rumors at his school that i still cut and i was a skurf and all this so i was like whatever...i was really upset at first...but then i talked to anna and molly..and...they helped soooo omuch they are sweethearts....the thing that helped me the most was listeing to the chanukah songs by adam sandler...but what i noticed throughout this relationship with bryan is that i compare everyone with matt...and im thinking matt wouldve called me or matt wouldve dont this matt wouldnt of done that...and the number one thing i think of it matt was the only one that didnt judge me and stayed with me even though i did cut...and the reason bryan broke up with me was because i thought i did..then i realized how much i really miss matt...and he could have been "the one" ya know? because we understood each other...we were...idk we were "matt and sam" and i miss it.. and it makes me mad that he doesnt even want to come back to visit us..its like..now that he lives in HAWAII he is too good for us t-town people ...and it makes me soooo mad because he only called me when it was my bday..im wondering if he's gunna call for xmas...because i really do still love him..and like i said, i ALWAYS will...but yea im sure he's moved on...and i have too for the most part..and thats what we need to do but i dont want to like...never talk to or see him again...i still want to be friends..but idk...we'll see

no school today...partly good pertly bad....i wanted school so we could have are dance that way i could see bryan and hang w/ molly...but now we dont so i have to see if bryan and molly wanna come up here later and f'n play out side...so f'n good...we might all go to brooks like last year...but im not sure yet!! i hope...i called bryan last night but there wasa no answer so i left the pimpest message..lol hopefully he calls back:P well i g2g eat somethin leave em sweet! I love you so much Bryan Anthony Kolodziej

well right now im talking to travis E....and he really likes brook and she told him earlier that she doesnt want to talk to him anymore and al this stuff and he is kinda/really upset....so im trying to make him feel better....i feel bad b.c he really is one of my best buds...so idk...but we have a dance on friday...HOPEFULLY Bryan will come to it..i havent seen him since the last football game..an dbrook hasnt seen tyler since then..so we are all getting together to chill..i really miss bryan alot....he is such a sweetheart i love him..i might even see him on wednesday because if he goes to church w/ ty and i go w/ meredith...then we will be together for like 3 hours...lmao church..i migh tbe able to have him over xmas eve or the day afte rxmas then i might even go meet his parents...i hope so saturday is our one month..YAY

well its thursday..i think tommorow im going to the movies w/ the crew and bryan is probly coming down..but he is going to open gym til 5 so..i think he'll come..but we have to prank brook and tyler because they have got us so bad!!! ive gotten tyler..but never brook..me bryan tyler and brook...we're the prankster family :P but then saturday if hes allowed bryan will come to the mall with me and maybe brook and tyler and my sister is buying me a dress for winter formal....there is gunna be a party on the...well a date for someone and its something but i cant say anything else because someone who goes to my school could read this and tell people and it would be totally ruined so im not saying any more :x lol well im gunna go...waititng to talk to my huni I love you so much Bryan Anthony Kolodziej

well i went hunting today and will tommorow...my uncle shot theback feet right off a deer and like exploded its spine..it was crazy...its wierd cuz me ans Bryan do the same exact thing when we get a deer we have to gut it by ourselves and put its blood on our face...hope fully i get one tommorow..but i dont want to gut it..but i will have a bunch of pics..friday im goin to the movies saturday im goin to the mall and bringing tyler bryan and brook if they are allowed to, or im getting my xmas tree and bringing bryan if hes allowed and someone might have a party then the next firday we have a dance and wyloo might have a winter formal and i want to go them saturdaysomeone might have a party ot tyler is taking us to the mall...im excitedbut i g2g leav ethe love!! I love Bryan Anthony Kolodziej!

well tonight i am probly going to the movies with brook and tyler and bryan is most likely going...but i still have to find out...i straightened my hair just for brook...hopefully i can go because hunter has hockey and my parents are going to watch and i might have to go with them but im gunna ask if i can go to the movies because brook asked me to go like last week...i told hunter i would go to his first game and bring my friends and we're all gunna make signs for him...lol hes like yay yay! i think watching him practice would be boring so..i really want to go to the movies though even if bryan deosnt go i wanna hang out with tyler and brook well im gunna go..leftover time!! leave em sweet! I Love you Bryan Anthony Kolodziej!

thanksgiving dinner was so awesome..i made so much stuff...its cool im going outside to play football later....it was snowing really hard earlier....me and brook decided that when there is enough snow, we are getting bryan and tyler down here and all the girls together and we're having a party and going sledding...were so excited!! bryan was being soooo sweet last night!!! well it all started because me bryan tyler and brook always make a chatroom for us 4 and we were talking about our ppriorities and tyler goes 1.brook2.hunting3.baseball and brooks like awww it was so cute then bryans like 1.sam 2. sam 3. sam and i imed him and i was like oXo SAMii: aww i love you lil k *****: i love so much more oXo SAMii: no thats impossible lil k *****: no its not oXo SAMii: yes it is...i swear lil k *****: how lil k *****: ? oXo SAMii: because there is no way you can love me as much or more than i love you... lil k *****: :-* oXo SAMii: lol lil k *****: i love u oXo SAMii: i love you too lil k 3*****: cya babe oXo SAMii: bye :- i need to see you this weekend.... lil k *****: i no lil k *****: i'll try my hardest oXo SAMii: well my sister said that she could go get you if you ever wanted to come down here any day this week so lil k *****: k lil k *****: ill c what i can do oXo SAMii: lol kk lil k *****: cya lata oXo SAMii: bye lil k *****: :-*:-* oXo SAMii: ;-);-) so i think he is coming down here tommorow and me brook him and tyler are going to the movies then im probly gunna crash at brooks house....he goes 1st thing when i see you again and gunna go up to you and hug you! i was like awww...oooo i cant wait to play football! i have been playing ddr and american idol all day its fun! well im gunna go leave em sweet! I love Bryan Anthony Kolodziej

hey im in elmira right now its so boring and aol wont work..whatev...tyler came up with an awesome idea...this weekend or next weekend i am taking brook up to wyalusing then we are stopping and picking up bryan and then going to tylers house...then he is taking us upo to the steamtown mall and im walking around with him and brook is going with bryan and me and tyler are shopping for bryan and brook and bryan and brook for me and tyler..i am so excited it will be the f'n best...i love the bryan so much..i mean...jeez i cant even explain it..well im gunna go leav em sweet! i love Bryan Anthony Kolodziej!!!

i love him so f'n much ...we decided that hes my dork and im his nerd...he is so sweet i love him so much..he was like i wish i would hug you right now...and hes like i love you so much babe....and right before he signed off hes like oh i just love you so much...gosh i cant even begin to explain it...next weekend brook might have a party..her parties kick ass i remember her last one we were in her basement dancing the whole time and we went to the park..and this time i would actually have someone to be with...i really hope she has it..she says she wants to so that would be cool well im gunna go look up lyrics leave the love! I LOVE BRYAN ANTHONY KOLODZIEJ!!!

omg bryan went to the game last night i was sooo happy and really cold and all my friends are like fuck sam hes hot ! i was like yea hes mine dont even think about it! and we went to the fire and he held my hand.....then we went back to our bleachers and i got a blanket so he put it around us and put his arm around me....i was so warm...but then he had to go so i jumped down and he hugged for like 10 minutes and he so kissed me cheek...it was so sweet...then like we looked in each others eyes and i was like can you call me tonight? and hes like yea of course....then he left ::tear tear:: then he called me at about 10 30 and we were talking about the game and where i lived and stuff like that and he goes if you want me to go to the movies with you tommorow you can call me..i was liike YEA i want you to go...you have to go..and hes like why i was like cuz i miss you andi want to see you and hes like well i want to see you too...but then his sister had to use the phone...but like...i seriously am in love with him...he is...so...idk sweet and i could look into his eyes forever i mean even just the way he hugged me...i loved it.....i think im gunna cal him later and see if he wants to come over then go to the movies....idk though...he said that he could come to the movies so...well i g2g leave the love i love you oh so much Bryan Kolodzeij! <3

tommorow is going to be the best day ever...we play montoursville and its gunna be so black and orange tommorow..pep rally...our cheering section at the game...i know we can do it...i really have faith in our team and...i dont want this to sound corny but...god will pull us through....Bryan is going im so excited to see him...i got underarmour today and i finished my shirt..its going to be..the fucking best!!! next week i might shadow molly ross and the next she would come to my school..i hope it happens! well im going to go! I love you so much Bryan Kolodzeij!!!

well last night was the game againt mt. carmel..we won..it was so crazy..i was with our huge t town cheering group..we were screaming the whole time i think that is the most fun ive ever had..and were doing it again next week..me and brook lost our voices..i tried singing and so did she...and we cant...its crazy..we were like singing and everything..it was awesome...it was 28 degrees out and wasnt even the tiniest bit cold at all..screaming and jumping...lol next week tyler and bryan are probly coming...travis and and p. hugo called me yesterday..we were on the phone for like 2 hours..they made me sing for them..but then i didnt want to talk to them...then bryan called me<3... hes so funny next saturday i think im taking bryan tyler and brook to the mall w/ me..i cannot wait...i love life so much :D :P im gunna go now! i love you bryan!

well bryan asked me out..and of course he said you..omg he was being..so...funny! lol hes like wow my day just got so much better...we were talking about his x....for some reason..not quite sure..but i think h emight be coming to the game tommorow..but i dont know..i hope he does..but i kinda doubt it...i think i am having people over next saturday..if not im gunna see if my mom can take me brook tyler and bryan to the mall..i bet she can.. i am just gunna have to ask!! well im gunna go to bed leave em ~I love you Bryan~Baby I love you you are my life my happiest moments werent complete if you werent by my side <3

tonight is the donkey basketball game. i cant wait! its gunna be the f'n best...tommorow is the district game...i think Bryan is coming :) yay! lol i got my internet back last nigth and he imed me and i didnt know who it was so he told me. but anyways we were talking about the football game and he said he really hopes he can go..tyler is like i know someone who really likes you alot... and i was like and who might that be? and hes like bryan! and then later bryan was like so i hear you like me..i was like oh? well i hear you like me..and he just put that angel face and a winky face..then he had to go and he sent me his number and a winky face...idk if he expected me to call him but i didnt...lol tyler told me that they are probly having a winter formal..and he originally asked kalie to go with him but now since hes going out with brook i guess shes going! yes..brook is such a sweety! lol tyler told me that bryan is going to ask me to go with him! brook is like sam we have to go to the mall and go shopping for dresses! but she is wearing chelsies dress it sounds really cute..so i guess brook is buying shoes...we are just wearing those short cute dresses..i love them...if they dont have it then tyler and bryan are coming to our dance...i really hope he comes tommorow so i can see him...he has gorgeous eyes :P lol kk i g2g bells ringing in 1 minute!!! leave the lovin!

keyboarding..i bet you guessed that... well tommorow is the donkey basketball game....dakota, kalie, cornell, some other of my friends and some skanks i think are riding for our grade..im going it is gunna be awesome...friday is the 1st district game..against Mt. carmel...everyones going to that..im buying my ticket tommorow..tyler and brian are supposed to go(in my other entrys i called him bradon because brook thought that was his name..i thught it was brian... i was so right...lol)then saturday i might have a party..me and brook were planning it...go to my house at noon..then go down to the riverfront place and listen to music and play football and stuff...the walk to the movies at 6 or so... then i guess everyone goes home after the movies..but idk if weare gunna wait to do it next weekend..idkbut ig2g cuz im bored..lol leave em sweet

well im in keyboarding and we had to carry some typewriters and some fat kid richard dropped one and broke it..it was funny..today were student council elections and kyle beat me by one vote...KYLE LEJEDAL...beat me and kalie and cornell..wtf?!? but anyway i was talking to him and hes like i dont really care you can do it if you want i can drop out..i was like ok whatever you want..so meredith was gunna tell mrs melluzo that he wanted to drop out then he started likescreaming at meredith in the hall that he didnt want to quit or something and he was telling all these sophmores and juniors that im a slut and all this(ya im a SLUT because i want to be in student council wtf?)and so like people are like this samantha denny girl is trying to take kyles spot shes such a slut..im like do you even know what a slut is? but whatever...well brook is going out with tyler huffman!! yay!!! im so glad they are so cute together..well i guess tyler is best friends with brandon(the wyloo guy) and he is like telling him that he really likes me or something and he asks brook online when im getting on..i am gunna call my mom and tell her that i have a research assignment to do and she has to turn the internet back on...lol..but i really do have to look up stuff for french..for serious...oh wow...i never said for serious before...no im gunna say it alot....riiight lol im so confused of what to do..like..i really like chris..and i wanna go out with him but i like brandon to...idk im just really confused..chris lives in meshoppen though and idk how much i would be able to see him..if he moved to towanda i would go out with him..but idk if he will...im just soooo confused idk what to do...grr it makes me mad..well i g2g because my hand hurts..leave the lovin!

well this weekend was ok i guess..friday was the game and there is thiskid brandon he goes to wyloo er whatever and he is pretty hot...he have really pretty eyes...but anyways i was talking to tyler huffman i was like ur friends pretty hot..hes like hes got a girlfriend i was like oh i see...oh well...well tyler told him i thought he was so..so he broke up with his girlfriend!!! i was like what!! so he thinks im hot and he likes me so boork and tyler were making us talk to each other...but whatever brook told me that he imed her and was like whats sams s/n? is she on? i want her to get on i was like omg...but my mom turned my internet off so i couldnt get on..but whatever..anyways saturday at like 11 i had to walk downtown to clean off my window for window painting..then iwalked home..and like as soon as i got home courtney called me and was like hey you wanna hang out? i was like omg i just got home from downtown! so i was talking to her and chris like all day after that but we never got to meet...chris kept singing some nsync song..it was so fucking funny...then i was like i wish it would rain...i want to run in the rain...then it started raining it was funny...then my power went out for like and hour but my phone worked for somereason...so i was talking to chris...idk but hes like in love with the way i say right..he thinks i sound like a burnout..so does courney...idk!! lol i just say it...then at like 8:30 he called me after he got home and we were talking about music..and saying right..idk lol but then he was like asking me all these questions about music...oh yea courney asks alot of questions...lol but then i had to go because my mom was being a bitch..but hopefully she will turn the internet back on tonight...my dad is supposed to today..idk but it better be on when i get home or ill be pissed!! lol well g2g leave em sweet~! chris...rrriiiiiight! lmao love you! :* courtney~ the only reason people wear panties is so they can pull them halfway up thier back and tuck thier shirts into it...that has to b the funniest thing i ever heard! jel~ damn i love you!! loltoots..hehe bye yall