I hate sounding like some stupid, looks obsessed little shit but maybe i dont care I feel ugly. Its not a complaint. its a fact so ugly I feel like no matter how hard i try im not going to get better I have no control I feel like i would never be good enough I work so hard to mould everything in my life into the story ive created in my mind But there are some things you just cant alter I felt, just for a few days like i could actually be as stunning as some people are I took a long hard look and realised i can never be my main character I realised im not a peaceful person I want to put my arm round her throat and elbow her in the head And i really did just say that. Dear God. I sometimes worry that im actually an incredibly angry, violent person, and one day i am going to SNAP.