Just an update, things are going better than they were when i last wrote, chemistry today was better than i thought, but ive still failed, erm the nightmare is shrinking back into it's depths of malice from whence it came and im getting some peace for a bit...but im still very stressed out...i sort of snapped at a few people today, especially in the morning and i apologise... but ive found rozi's calculator!!!! and that makes me very very happy because its her dads old one and i thought id lost it and why the hell did she bring it to school if its so valuable the silly girl... anyway stephen is indirectly helping me to stop swearing which is very good...i just cant swear around him i said shit today and just felt a bit of an idiot really... i mean a well placed swear word for effect is great...or if your just in the kind of mood to swear after every other word. But i dont wanna use it too much. anyway history tomorrow which i have stopped caring about and thats bad because it mesna two hours of shaking and worrying myself to death and staring into the vast space of my grey, unemployed future... oh well.