i know that not everything can be perfect and that i need to learn to accept that... easier said than done, right? yeah. sometimes i wish i could be numb so no one would ask me what i felt because i wouldn't show emotions and i could stare into space without wishing to change something about my life. and i know everyone wants something different and i feel stupid for feeling like i need a change... i'm sorry but i hate feeling judged and vulnerable. i hate yelling and pressure and me thinking dumb things and not seeing change and ugh most of all....i'm sorry i must be hell to put up with sometimes i think people would be better off without me in their lives.