So I went to the St.Louis Zoo. Not bad. I had a pretty good time. I was determined to have a good time. I mean at least I was out of school. I could of been at school and takn a test. My friend got sick before school. I went to see her in the nurses office. She was crying. I saw her and I just had to give her a hug. Ever sense my mom died. I havn't been too big on hugs. I mean I hug my lil. bros. but, I rarely do. i allso hug my friend ashley. but, again rarely. basicaly family but, rarely. I used to give my mom as a greating and to say good bye. The last time I saw my mom alive....i gave her a hug and a kiss. What my point is that it takes alot or some thing special. For me to give in to phsical contact of eney kind. It makes for a lonley life but, that's how it is. I didn't like seeing her cry. I can't reamber if I ever have. I care about her. I havn't like these last few days. Not seeing her in school. i hope she gets better soon. About S. Now that i know what i did. It hurts not being her friend. I'm kool with it. but, some times i miss being her friend. like some times in english. or world history. and on the bus. ya, i miss espcialy miss talking to her on the bus. but, it's kool. I guess you could say I'v come to terms with it. I don't like it but, I'll keep respecting it. I talked to my dad over the weekend. he says; this will all blow over. I don't think so. S. is stubborn and so am I. i still hope jill is better soon. just so that I'll know she is feeling good. i'd like to know. can't think of a way how. well GTG