hey...its been a few days since i wrote. Well i really dont kno what to say, except i feel unappreciated...! I dont really kno whats wrong with me. Lately i just feel not welcomed, and un wanted...lately i feel like everything is happening to everyone around me, and im being left behind in the dust..! Everyone just seems so happy, and i feel like im trying to hide, from what i dont kno, i just feel like this. Maybe its because everyone around me has something to look forward to, and i really dont. I dont even kno what their looking forward to, but i just feel alone, i feel like all my friends all come to me with their problems, which isnt the problem, what is the problem is that i can't talk to any of them about it, i dont kno why, but i just cant do it...ive known my best friend since i was like 5 and i cant even talk to her about them, i think thats the whole reason i got this diary, so that i could just write and write, and my problems would just go, but they havent gone, their still here...i feel like when im with people, i ruin their good time, i feel like when i go to the bar with my friends, they would just have a way better time if i wasnt there. When i am there its like they wont go "hit on" anyone, or do crazy things, but my friends say they dont do the crazy things when im around because im there to stop them, cuz they really are crazy, but i just think thats the nice way of putting "well we dont like when your here because we have so much fun when your not" and thats not it, i feel like when im with them, ill have an upset look on my face and then someone will say hey whats wrong and then b4 i can even open my mouth their already talkin about something else, i mean its not always like that i mean i probably wouldnt be here if it wasn't for my friends, but lately i just feel put down, and un wanted...i feel like i'll never be wanted....oh well Anyways i had to vent, and nobody probably read that so that was just another waste of time....