So last night church was awesome! It always is though! Everytime i go i leave with a changed life! It is completely amazing! Matt prayed over me and it was just what i needed! I was asking God for some sort of sign of where im suppose to go or what im suppose to do or where im suppose to be and then matt came over to me and prophecied over me, and it was completely awesome! he is such an amazing man of God! He is one of a kind! Today chapel rocked! but thats only cause matt came and spoke! yay! it was so awesome and the worship was incredible, i can tell this SCA people are changing...slowly, but it doesnt matter how fast as long as they are changing! yay im so excited but ahh...i have been struggeling so much with temptation..ahh its like insane! i wish i could erase my past from my memory cause it just reminds me of all the crap ive been through and done. anyways ..I love jesus with all my heart no matter what!

BAH! so today was just a normal day at school i guess...nothing exciting happened? umm i went to the worship thing at lunch! it was cool! Its so exciting to see the people at SCA changing! i hope everyone, including me, keeps the fire going and will set and example! God has such amazing plans for you all Proverbs 16:1 To man belong the plans of the heart, but from the Lord comes the reply of the toungue. Thats a cool verse, if you think about it and understand it! After school i went to starbucks then came home..woohoo ..lately i have been dealing with depression, its odd! yes i am completely changed and i am totally on fire for God, but that doesnt mean that crap still doesnt happene in my life! I'm trying my hardest to have a good attitude with it and put all my worries on Christ 1 Peter 5:7 Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. I love the Bible, seriously if u actually read it, its an awesome book, like the best :-) lol! It has helped me grow so much..i love Romans! Thats my favorite book! So i urge you all to just open your bible to a random page..and start reading. Im struggleing with alot of temptations with "Certain" things i was doing/delaing with in the past..its hard.. James 1:2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, why should we consider it joy when we have temptations or problems, because we will end up learning something from it..."God doesnt make us go through pain, he allows you to" Isaiah 43:2 When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.

i dont really feel like writing but i needed to update umm so yeah i got back from disneyland early this morning it was alot of fun we also went to hollywood and that was so fun for me since i want to be an actress or i'll be whatever God wants me to be...whatever will be fine with me :-) well yeah i will write more about it later..and i will put pics in here too maybe if i can... byee

wellp... im leaving for disneyland in like 5 minutes yesterday was a really fun day...my siblings are so cool! BYE EVERYONE MWAHH! I'LL BE BACK ON SUNDAY I THINK... MAYBE SATURDAY.. adios//

yeah, so today was my brothers birthday party, but his birthday isnt until tomorrow! i got to decorate his cake and i drew spongebob on it and it looked so good..dang seriously i am a fantastic cake decorator! forreal! i am! so his party was fun i guess? i just took pictures of millions of little boys! i like taking pictures its cool! hes nine years old! wow what a big boy! there was this one little boy daniel, he always secluded himself from everyone else, it reminded me..of me! baha jk im always around people..or alone..one or the other! haha so umm yeah thats what i did today! cool i know! oh and i babysatt oh and i just pierced my second cartilidge myself! YESS! ive always wanted to do that! i feel so accomlished! DISNEYLAND = TUESDAY! = i get to miss a week of school = im gonna miss my friends = i might cry..

haha sam..like my title? anywayz..so yesterday at school it was pretty cool...cause i brought my fake teeth so after school me and jessica were being amelia and carrie..haha both of us need some serious dental care! bahhh! okay and we had our physics test yesterday..i got it back today and i got a 94...i would have gotten 100 but i felt guilty...:-/! okay so today school was cool i guess? it was "dress up dennis day" woohoo! hhaa i didnt do anything though cause im not cool enough! well me and jess were amelia and carrie again..haha its fun! i wrote her a 2page note...front and back... with a picture of amelai and carrie cheering! ha it totally rocked! but i gtg to go to corum deo..i will write about it when i git back..later.. now its later..and i am back from corum deo! baha! umm yea it was really cool, and lots of fun, cant wait till next time! :-)! i wrote a poem while i was there and they wanted me to read it out loud so i did, and then stacie asked me if i sing, and i didnt answer her cause i dont think im a good singer and she was all "yeah, you do you sing, i totally just saw you going places uses your voice and songs and your poems, thats awesome"..yay! thats so cool! im so excited to see whats going to happen in my life and the lives of others! Melody is so cool! shes hilarious i love her!..maybe i will post my poem in here but i dont feel like typing it out now...sorry!

yeah so today i went to school..but that wasnt even the best part! muahah! lol but yeah in bible study today it was my turn to lead it..i think i did pretty good eh? me and jessica never get to be losers anymore at lunch these weirdo boys keep sitting with us and it sucks! so umm...after school jessica had a crisis..but it turned out to be a fake! Before we went to church me and lindsay met her friends, matt julia and KELLEY!, at fuddruckers and we ate there! then kelley left us to go to...phoenix first...umm yeah, ..then matt came with us to our totally awesome church! tonight was really cool! worship was awesome like always! and matt, the pastor, just let kida come up and talk about their lives and God and stuff! it was really encouraging and it helped alot! *what are you holding on to..that is MORE IMPORTANT THAN GOD?* yupp...goodnight!

Thirteen random things you like: 01. poetry 02. acting 03. movies 04. Jesus 05. laughing 06. yearbooks 07. pictures 08. friends 09. coffee 10. christmas 11. being weird 12. reading..but only the Bible 13. earrings Twelve movies you like: 01. Cheaper by the dozen 02. Just married 03. Elf 04. Titanic 05. Two Weeks Notice 06. Finding Nemo 07. Freaky Friday 08. A Walk to Remember 09. The Notebook 10. Wicker Park 11. Beauty and the Beast 12. Napolean Dynamite Eleven things in your room: 01. bed 02. chair shaped as a shoe :-) 03. desk 04. bible 05. lamp 06. posters 07. mirror 08. CD rack 09. sleeping bag 10. pillows 11. stuffed animals Ten good friends: 01. Jessica 02. My sister 03. Pahnke 04. Caitlin 05. Ashley 06. Casey 07. Ali 08. lots more.. 09. tons more... 10. so many more... Nine shows you watch: 01. Thats so ravenn...yess!!! 02. Thats 70's show 03. Degrassi :-) 04. Friends 05. Boy meets world 06. Full house! 07. Step by step 08. Random reality shows..they're my fave! (cait is my #1 fave though!) 09. Sister Sister Eight favorite foods/drinks: 01. rootbeer 02. umm cookie things that i dont know what they are called 03. spanish rice 04. enchiladas 05. Ruffles chipss 06. grapes 07. macaroni salad 08. seseme sticks... Seven things you wear daily: 01. promise ring 02. old promise ring 03. my watch 04. umm clothes? 05. 3 pairs of earrings 06. makeup 07. nail polish... Six things that annoy you: 01. People who chew and make funny noises 02. Stalkers..even though i am one..bah 03. parents 04. technology 05. racist people 06. stupid mexicans...haha jk Five things you touch everyday: 01. My sister...lol 02. keyboard 03. door handle 04. eyeliner 05. Bible Four things about you: 01. Im weird 02. ..unique 03. i laugh alot 04. Im deep..as in deep thoughts..a deep thinker...u know? Three celebrities you have a crush on: 01. Ryan Gosling 02. Ashton Kutcher 03. Heath Ledger Two people you'd like to kiss: 01. umm... 02. ...hmm One person you could spend the rest of your life with: 01. ..no comment HAPPY BIRTHDAY BLAKE!

okay so today i woke up, cause thats what u gotta do in the morning and i did my hair weird and i used about 60 bobby pins...no exaggerations! that will be interesting to take out...! so yeah then i went to school and stuff..and it was just a normal school day! Math was really fun we went into groups of 3 and i was with Jessica and Lucas...lucas is one crazy kid! it was lots of fun but i ditched K.C. to be with jess and lucas and i feel bad now cause he made me feel bad! but we are friends again and we have a detective agency together cause we are good detectives! its called M & M detecive agency..because both our last names start with M...cool i know, K.C. thought of it! he wanted it to be detective "institute" but thats like a mental hospital...! and we have code names.. but...i cant say them, for they are codes and they are sacred! oh yeah and in math class my dad came in and was like gonna try on underwear...bahh..jk..but we thought it was my dad i have pretty white nail polish on but its chipping... so at lunch we had bible study and it was good... GOOD JOB BETHANY! i was thinking alot about what she was talking about before the bible study anyways! tomorrow is mine and jessicas day i already have a lesson thing prepared! then we got our pictures in the office, mines really freaky cause i have super long hair..i never realized my hair was that long and it looks weird..so yeah! what do u think about that ...foool? then after school i had a few voicemails from a friend...and well heres the story...My dear friend Miss Casey Joy Chadwick got dropped off at her house after school and got locked out of her house. So she thinks of me ofcourse and walks to SCA to visit me and i guess other people! So since i am such a caring person i invited her to my house! and now she is here with me, cool story i know!..and then...we found a slip n' slide...but we didnt go on it...we just looked..! then when we got home we ordered pizza... It was actually a better day than i would have thought... comment fool... To me the only important thing about living is Christ, and dying would be profit for me. -Philippians 1:21

okay so today i woke up at 730 wow, thats totally early..! and yeah im all better i still have that - getting over being sick - feeling but its okay! so i have been really confused about my life and pretty much everything lately, but isnt everyone just a little confused..i cant be that crazy..! dso yeah alot of weird stuff is going on with my mom i dont know, life is just being pretty weird now and im trying to be as optimistic as possible, but in the end i know my smile is fake and i hate doing that i dont even realize when im fakeing a smile i seem to have gotten so use to it! yes there is reason to be happy because i am getting so much closer to God this past week all i have been doing is reading bible verses and they really do help i know i need to give my worries to God but its just weird i also know that we must suffer on earth because our reward in heaven will be so much greater than any of this, but it sucks to suffer! this one bible verse made me sad cause it was about a certain sin that God saiz not to do, and i use to do it all the time, yeah that was the old me and its not a part of me anymore but it still haunts me, i cant forget. so today me and lindsay went to see wicker park, it was actually a really good movie! It was pretty confusing but it was cool how all the puzzle peices fit together in the end! it was awesome i would definately see it again! but now i totally have a like 3 page history outline to do...and i havent even started! woohoo! that should be cool! Romans 10:14 “But before people can ask the Lord for help, they must believe in him; and before they can believe in him, they must hear about him; and for them to hear about the Lord, someone must tell them” so go tell someone the good news about Jesus, it will make God smile..

sorry, i havent written in like 3 days i have been sick with strep throat and alot of crap is going on in my life, but it doesnt matter because we must suffer on earth because Jesus suffered so that we could sin and just get away with it, cause we are forgiven! So whether i have the worst week of my life (which this week is coming close) i'm still gonna try to have a good attitude! YESSS!! well yesterday me and my mom went to the Jesus chapel the drive there and back was long and awkward, cause she knew something was up with me and she thought i was mad at her for some reason, she thinks that alot! but yeah at the Jesus chapel i bought like 5 new devotional books and already read some of ALL of them, they are addicting, i neveer knew how awesome reading was! and i bought a new bible cause ive wanted a new one for like a year now, and a case for it! then i bought this bag that saiz "hard core christian" its cool and i like it :-)! i also got a present for Jessica its just a lil thing, i got something for ashlee too but i dont know if she will like it! hmm..i hope i didnt infect the people at the jesus chapel with my sickness :-(! so today im home all alone cause my parents went up to flagstaff with my brothers and 2 other families and i couldnt go cause i was sick! and yesterday my sister left with andy to go to the lake and CAMP with them..bahah poor lindsay its her and a bunch of junior boys! im praying for her...haha! well thats it I LOVE JESUS "Why do you call me 'Lord, Lord,' but not do what i say?" -Luke 6:46 "If we live, we are living for the Lord, and if we die, we are dying for the Lord. So living or dying, we belong to the Lord" -Romans 14:8 "If we are to share his glory, we must also share his suffering" -Romas 8:17 that last one helped me alot to realize ever though im going through hard times, Jesus went through worse and if i wanna proclaim that Jesus is my Lord and share the glory with him, then i should share the suffering he had to go through to clean my sins away!

so i didnt write in here yesterday, wow im gettin a lil lazi :-)! So yesterday i went to school and me and jessica made this cool proomise to each other and i hope she and others will keep me accountable for it! lately i have been getting alot closer to jessica, caitlin, pahnke, thomas and donte! This year ha been good so far...well the school has been okay i mean...outside of school crap has been happening but problems are in everyones life..some are bigger than others but my point is everyone has problems..so yeah! im trying to get over a certain problem i had..Emphasis on HAD! im doing good, considering its the second day i havent been doing it...but you guys have no idea what im talking about..maybe just a few of you! anywayz last night i went to church and it was totally awesome! there was this one part where i thought he was totally speaking to me! it was amazing, but if i do what he said i will have to make a huuugggeee sacrafice that will be hard to make. Well we stayed at church till like 10 and me and christina played ping pong..kinda of in our own way! bahha! i got to see my favoritest casey joy! she looked so cute i love her so much! anywayz today i went to school again...lol cause it was another school day! and the chapel was totally awesome it was a whole bunch of black kids singing..lol but they totally rocked and they danced good too! YES! it was amazing! and yupp thats about it! Oh way it was christinas birthday today! HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRISTINA MAIDEN! pahnke's leaving today..to go out of town, but i dont remember where, but he shall be missed...

yo..i didnt write in hurre yesterday cos i didnt feel like it and i was having a bad day okay?!?! well yesterday i went to school, and me and jessica got to skip 6th period and "Talk" that was cool! ive been really depressed lately and i dont like it at all! then when i got home me and pahnke talked for like 3 and a half hours like old times! hes totally awesome! i love talking to him! then some crap happened but what else is new.. anywayz today i totally didnt go to school, i had a doctors appointment at 1..lol so i didnt feel like going to the first half cos i dont like school and people! but yeah i had to stay at the doctors for like 3 hours then pick up my brother from escuela and he looked really sad for some reason and it made me sad, but then me and him played the rest of the ride home! then when i got home i talked to pahnke for long time again woohoo! yyupp...then i was off to the JV football game and man we killed them the score was like 44 to 6..i dont know maybe we had more points but oh well! it was cool there me, caitlin, and ali took lots of picturess! yess! well thats all I LOVE JESUS I PROMISE I DO AND I ALWAYS WILL HE'LL GET ME THROUGH WHATEVER I FACE I KNOW IT!

okay so yeah i havent written in here for a while well i did but it got deleted 2 times and i got really mad so now im writing again! so on wednesday my whole high school went to a retreat up at pine summit and it totally rocked...here lemme tell you about in detail! so the bus ride there was cool! me and jessica were already having fun before the bus even started moving! i was thinking alot too, about how God was gonna work at this retreat and fun stuff like that..i was also thinking how its stupid when people talk about suicide so lightly like its no big deal and they make fun of it..anywayz! katie read all of us a story out of a magazine..that was interesting! then me and jessica took this quiz and one of the questians was "your boyfriend writes you a song named amelia, your name is karrie, what do u do?" hahahha you might not think thats funny but we really enjoyed that! ha! then dani totally mooned the car behind the bus..haha that was hilarious! oh yeah and i got to see cassie's mexican family and ex fiance! hhaa (i love you mexi!) okay so then we arrived at pine summitt and got settled in and crap! i stayed in a room with jessica, caitlin, ali, dani, katie, cassie, ashlyn, lexi, and natalie! that was alot fo fun! so that night the service was cool, i loved the worship but i always love worhship! ha after it me and jessica were writing 5:11 notes out side and pahnke cam over and put beetles on jessicas head, i found it hilarious..but she didnt! the next day i took alot of pictures that morning! and la la la the sessions were cool again and stuff ..in the middle of the day jessica found a hideous mark on her face but we had to write 5:11 notes so we went outside and sat all alone to write them, but the daniel and pahnke came up and pahnke started making fun of her..ha he does that alot! it was funny though and her hideous mark is all better now! hahaha! well at the services that day i cried..i cried at all of them cause of reasons...yeah! that night there was an optional worship service for anyone who wanted to go! id say about 55 people showed up, maybe more! it was totally amazing though! everyone was crying and it was just so incredible, the presence of God is so amazing! during that thomas could tell i was sad so after the worship we were talking and i told him alot of stuff that i had been dealing with and i was crying and crap..and he was being really nice and stuff! last time we kinda formed a relationship was at missions and that didnt really last so ..yeah i dont know if this will ..anywayz! i got alot closer to thomas, donte, and blake there! they are soo cool and awesomeness! and i met 2 new friends named catherine and jasmine! they are super cool..and i officially met steve johnson..! yaya! everyone rocks so much! well then the next day i was sad coa it was the last day! on our way back to az (haha jessica) we stopped by the sca vs. mayer football, to eat dinner and watch only half the game! but yeah we won.. by the 3 points the only points scored..haha! yaa, i totally spilled ketchup all over my jacket at dinner..lol, i had a nice talk with pahnke there, cept hes so popular people kept on coming up and interrupting me! oh well! then the ride home from there was a total blast! me, cait, and jessica were seeing jesus songs and it was fun! then me and jess decided to be amelia and karrie (from the questian in the magazine) so we took pictures of us and how we thought amelia and karrie looked! haha amelia has an attitude and karrie is retarded! hahahahha! me and cait took lots of pictures together too! haha! yeah it rocked! heres like 3 poems that i wrote combined into one.. I feel your presence and fall to my knees Heal me, forgive me, Watch me Lord please Fix this heart to follow after you You are the reason behind all that I do Use me in your ways; put me in your light Guide me in your path; give me your clear sight You dry my tears and fill my heart Tell me where to be Lord, where do I start? My life's been hard and I’m so confused I tried to fight, but now I’m broken and bruised But you were there carrying me every step of the way I didn’t realize that I felt so alone and astray There were 2 paths to choose from and I chose wrong This path killed my spirit and made me less strong The battle scars will always remind me How I didn’t trust you, but you trusted me If it wasn’t for that path I wouldn’t be who I am now I learned so many lessons...and I learned how to be Christ-like, to be more like you... I learned to be loyal, honest and true The devil tried so hard to pull me away But you are the one I will always obey My lips will be used to sing you praise My feet will be used to follow in your ways Your ears will listen when my lips pray I will lift my hands to you everyday When life is bad and everythings wrong I’ll turn up the music and sing you a song “I will forever love you...I will never leave” That’s a promise from you that I believe It’s also a promise from me to you Cause you gave me the strength to make it through And if you asked has it been worth the fight Lord I’d do it all again I LOVE JESUS! then when i got home bad stuff happened, i dont really feel like saying it so im not going too but yeah the devil is alreayd trying to bring me down but i cant let him...i wont! yea so this weekend has been really hard on me and really confusing, ive pretty much been in my room all weekend listening to wroship musci and reading the bible and other christian books! its been fun actually! but im kind of in depression..its weird, maybe im not i dont know im so confused! but i love Jesus with all ym heart and i know he wont put me through anything i cant handle...in the end this will only make me a stronger person~ cait has been helping me tons so has jessica! thank you so much guys i love you

..OKAY seriously i love how noone leaves me comments...even if my diary entry isnt important..arent I?!?!?!? ha..yea any wayz today i went to school and my sister and matthew picked me up!! yaya! then we went to walgreens for some crap, then i did homework, then i packed.. yea thats definately it so tomorrow i leave for retreat...after school! we're going to prescott, my whole high school that is..and i'll be back late on friday night! im excited i loved retreat last year! and i love Jesus so much so i know its gonna reallly rock!..we have to where are school uniforms on the bus on the way there...yeah how gay is that! our school has turned nazi they lock us in during school hours, im serious..its crazzyyyy, and my sister cant come visit me at lunches anymore! :-(! ahh... I LOVE JESUS SOO SOO SOO MUCH! Can you imagine it hanging there bleeding to death Wheezing for breath your stomach hurts cause you got beat in the chest your all bloody from your feet to your head from the look of things u would think you’d be dead but your not cause you gotta finish the work every seconds like a minute every minute it hurts Your screaming in pain “Oh God” screaming his name “Why have you forsaken me this is the reason I came” your crying in sobs but you cant cry thru your eyes cause your face is so swollen that its driving u blind your back aches cause pressure is applied to your spine when u press upon your feet cause your trying to climb up the cross jus 2 get a gasp of air meanwhile everybody laughs & stares it’s only been 10 minutes but it feels like half a year the roman soldiers grab & tear at your clothes leaving your privates exposed humiliated is how you die for the throne & they witness @ the site of your death & they watch you as your fighting for breath every insult feels like a knife in your chest & the blood drips down your neck from the spikes in your head the crown of thorn, somebody sound the horn cause the curtain from the temple, they found it torn that means salvations free, he paid the fee I once was blind but now he made me see I went from peewee to playing in the major league The temple was destroyed in one day but raised in 3 YEAH thats an awesome song..actually its a christian WHITE rapper dude! lol but hes actually pretty good! suriously, i know a TRUE gangsta when i see one..hahaha!

OKay so today i went to school la la la..school was normal! after school andy brought me and lindsay to PV Mall and we had din din there that was fun i sorta broke this sign thing ... wow i brake alot of things...and i fall alot, i dont think i can do much right! anywayz yeah that was it then i came home and did homework! woohoo! ...not, then i did my quiet time and now im going to bed! I LOVE JESUSSS ALL THA WAYY FOREVER AND EVERRR! i wanna post a song in here but i cant right now cos my bro wants the comp...bye!

Well, today my dearest ashlee had to leave my house! and she took my 12 $ with her..(im funna need that back babe)..lol anywayz! then i did homework because its sunday and it needed to git done for tomorrow which is school! after i did my homework my parents and brothers went fishing..while me, lindsay, & andy went to fuddruckers..my sister officially fell in love with that place!.andy didnt, there was this baby crying next to us so he made us move tables hahaha! apparently i did something really funny and i made andy cry cos he was laughing so hard..but i dont even get it.. then we went back to andy's house and i drove this motorcycle lookin scooter thing and it was scary i drove it all alone and i was heading straight for their fountain and couldnt turn i was out of control..right when i got to the fountain i truned though..that was pretty scary, and funny...lol anywayz then we went to pick my brothers up at like 7:30 so they could go play nintendo and ride in the elevator at andy's house! they had fun! my brothers are quite good at halo actually! and it was their first time playing! and their 8& 5.. so yeah then while they were playing nintendo in tha guest house i was playing pool by meself cos i was trying to learn HOW to play it..well i know how ive played before but im not good...you can ask levi. okay so yeah then we went home and i slept.. *Im sick of peoeple dissin my religion sayin that Christ is just my opinion*

heyyyy so today ashlee came over..woohoo! (that was not sarcastic!) and we had some fun, then endy came to pick us up and we went to his house and explred cos ive been there before but ive only seen 3 rooms so when i went today i looked through the whole house ANNNDDD tha guest house!..OMGGGOOODNESSS, they have a efffing elevator in their house..yeah thats right, i got to go on it, i decided im funna be their butler and be the guy in the elevator that saiz "going up?" that would rock sooo much! Levi wasnt home when i went though...:-( so i left him a note then me, ashlee, lindsay,& andy all went to sokem mexican restaurant and ate dinner that was cool i drank like 5 gallons of water there and sorta made a mess with my food but ohh well, i dont gotta clean it up..haha thats sad! then we went back to andys crib and levi stiiilll wasnt there so we went to arbys to meet up with derek and matt and surpisingly it was fun..lol, derek has some opinions that i seem to agree with! then we all went back to andy's house and they played halo while i tried to play pool, key word trieedd! and yup LEVI WASSS THERE! I FINALLY GO TO SEE HIM! yes i had been looking foward to this all day! bhaa!!! then after derek and matt left me, shlee, levi, andy, and lindsay alll just chilled in tha casa! ashlee said something really funny that i cant explain and i spit my water out and it got on andys computer, it was funny, but i cleaned it up! then lindsay was hiding from andy in the shower and then andy turned to shower on and got her all wet! hahahahah that was so hilarious! i sang a song to levi, he loved it, i know he did! then i made like 4390579437 more songs and sang them to everyone on the guitar i know they reallly enjoyed them!!, what can i say?!?! then andys mom came in and we learned all the names of all the animals hanging in andres room, that was cool, then we came home at 12:40 AM cos i wass tiiirrreeedddd! so now im funna go to bed! later... i love Jesus, i promise i do and i always will *Everything inside you know there's more than what you heard So much more than empty conversation filled with empty words and you're on fire when he's near you, you're on fire when he speaks, you're on fire burning at these mysteries* that song majjoorrrly rockss!!! i love switchfoot they are amazing!

OKAY...so im bored so i feel like saying my day in detaill..well this morning my mom brought me to school as opposed to andy bringing me! In english we had to hand in our papers ahout our lives and when Neff read his it was really good, i wish i could write like that! then in spanish michael grady and jamie had a danceoff and that was interesting. Mr. lovett did some dancing too, i could do better than all of them i just didnt wanna show off lol..haha just kidding! in bible we played a cool game it was fun but i didnt win, brad did cos he had a trick questian, but i got it right cos ive known him since i was 3! in Algebra K.C. wouldnt stop punching, what a jerk...he does that all the time though. In world histiory all we did was watch a movie and that was broing so i wrote a note to dani since we dont have any classes together! ..then it was lunch and i did the lesson for our bible study, it wasnt my day, but since im so nice i went! yeaaa and i read the poem that i wrote at camp so that was cool! i'm REALLY REALLY looking forward to how this bible study is gonna turn out, im excited to see how its gonna help people and stuff! its so awesome how amazing God is! i love to see him work in people!..well then computers was boring and physics was boring, nothing particulary interesting happened with me in tha class..or pahnke..thank goodness ;-) then andy took me home but we went to sonic and got drinks, then he dropped me off at mi casa and i pretty much just watched tv the rest of today! i watched girls vs boys hawaii and the girls won, well duh! but it was so sad cos it was the last episode and they all had to go back home and they live in different states and they were all crying so it was sad and it made me realize how much you should cherish life and who is in your life because if you let them go they might not come back..and if u feel like you dont have anyone, which is sometimes how i feel, i just have to remember God, and you'll find someone who you can share stuff with. God wants us to talk to others physically about our problems and not justtt Him. so yeah! that was my day totally cool i love Jesus so much i wrote a random poem today..sometimes i just start writeing not even meaning to make a poem but thats how it always seems to end up, this is sorta like my life, how it is now, how it will be and how it was in the past...its just mY LiFfE i hate pretending i love being free i want to be noticed i hope to be me i need to be loved i feel like a reject i think ..but why? i pray to be perfect i wished to die i know i'm wrong i lack confidence i can be strong i will be different i wont be weak i live content i am unique *What i did, felt like the only pain i could control, but now i realize God controls my life, because i surrended my life to him*

today..school was school! our bible study so rocks..i mean its not that great but it will be totally awesome and thats why i look foward to school everyday!, im cool like that..! and my sister came at lunch and visted me and andy and everyone else! yaya that was soo super cool! but she cant come again because the school is stupid and wont let visitors come at lunch anymore...ugfh i swear that school is funna be a boarding school soon! then some interesting things happened in physics...not only to me but to pahnke! lol//but those shall remain namelesss... and after school is where the real fun started! bahah my sister came to pick me up then jessica made me go to math help with her, so yeahh..lol we had a fun time with mr. fox and all his football players! haha we are freaks..and mr. fox definately knows that now, hes funny...lol we are gunna do that every monday and thursday now! yayaya! hahahahah yaya cant wait! well yeah thats it...i love Jesus so much..because he died for me, just so he could live inside of me then he rose from the dead so we could give him praise! because he deserves all of tha praise dude!