Today is the day that every teenager looks foward to. The day you get your license. Today was my first day as a licensed driver, and it couldn't have gone better. After I obtained the actual license, we came home, I cleaned, and was allowed to take the car to Menards to get myself a key. My own key. The catch... I picked up Danny on the way. It was the greatest feeling I've ever had. We were driving along Emerson with the radio blaring and us singing along horribly. It was amazing. I went to Courtney's after and we got food. Not much. I went to Bible Study, as I do every Wednesday night... but this wasn't a normal Wednesday. I got to leave early, because you see, I drove there. I left about 90 minutes early. I drove around Perry for a while, and even got lost a few times. The only song I would let myself listen to was "Summer Days" by Ronnie Day. The song made me feel... well, I'm not sure. It made me want to cry, because I swear, that song was written for me. "She's barely hit 16 and she's dying." I want to marry this lyric. Anyways, I never actually cried, but I just kinda was in a haze. After regaining my sense of direction, I drove myself to the park on Derbyshire. I wanted to swing, but a love-struck old couple were on them. That made me sad. It seems like I'm never going to find someone to grow old with... I lay down on the blue bench, and just thought. I wanted to die, but at the same time I just wanted to drive away and never come back. I eventually called Ashleigh. Her and I used to be very close friends and hanging out with her always made me feel better. Her and I hung out in her room for a while. We looked at pretty people on Myspace, and talked about her boyfriend, Tony. I hate this feeling I've had all day. I feel so empty. Losing Abbey is the worst thing I've ever had to go through. I miss her so much... When I left Ashleigh's, I drove the long way home, through the neighborhood. I was the only one on the road. I felt infinite and empty at the same time. I floored the gas pedal and just let the wind blow through my hair. It was amazing....