Dunno what to do again. It's been a long time. But for a short summary, no matter what I choose, I always end up confused and lost. Nothing can satisfy anyone right now. It's obvious that I'm only TRUELY happy at church. I love it there. Daisy wants me to go be a Young Apostle with her and Jackie. It sounds like so much fun. I'm getting a summer job this summer to raise money for it. I need about 300 dollars for the thing. I think I can do it if I work hard enough. If I don't make enough, I'm sure my parents could help out a bit. This summer will rock. I just hope it doesn't ruin my friendship. That's what I'm afraid of. Should I just let go? I don't want to. It'd hurt me. But then again, so do my decisions...