"(.What.I.heard.is.not.what.I.hear.I.can.see.the.signs.but.they're.not.very.clear.)" (.Made a new diary.No longer want people knowing who i am.Just want to be able to write whatever i want without haveing to worry.) (.Christmas was yesterday.It went pretty good i could say.I had so much family stuff to do over the past two days.I wanted to spend it with my mom,becuz she has no1 in this town n' she defenatly does not desrve to be alone.) (.I got a phone call last nite from joey.I wish he would leave me alone.I really would.He wants to hang out,i dont.He wrote me an email.I am not going to wirte back.Hopefully he gets the point,cuz he obviously hasnt yet.) (.Marty is in town.Two houses down from me actually.I was just talking to him on the computer,another person i dont really want to hang out with at the time.I mean I actually care about marty,but i have learnt it was just not meant to be.) (.All i want, all i have ever wanted is shaun.Fuk when i get the chance to tell him,ill be relieved.I screwed it up the first time,that wont happen again.Alot of stuff happened between me n' him.We are just getting close again.It feels so good.) (.keep.it.real.)