"(.I've slept so long without you .it's.tearing.me.apart.till. .how.to.get.this.far.playing.games. .with.fist.held.cards. .I've.killed.a.million.pity.souls. .But.I.can't.kill.you. .I've.slept.so.long.without.you) (.Its all for you babe.) (.All the things i never got to tell to you.All the things ive been dying to say.It all ended to fast.) (.I was a better person when i was with you.I have gone downhill since you left.) (.You were the first guy i ever truly cared about.You wanted me.I wanted you.The months we spent together are unforgetable.You hurt me so bad.You had the nerve to kiss her and go on like nothing happened.I still stayed with you.Then you break my heart.) (.The things that happened after that destroyed my life.The things i do not bare to mention.The thought of it gives me shivers.I had to live with what happened that night.A night you and i had came closer than ever.It was as much your fault as mine.But it was my life that shattered. you While you went on laughing with your friends about me.Lieng to save yourself.) (.Somehow i still find a way to blame myself for the things that have happened.) (.Even after that i am still spilling my heart for you.) (.There may have been other guys in the past lil while.But they ended quickly.All because i couldnt be with someone when i knew all my feelings were for you.You were on my mind all the time.You still are.If not more than before.) (.The past couple weeks we have become close again.A small part of me beleives that you know you made a mistake.You know what we had was something.Are you to holding back your words?The signs have become unclear as you act the way you do.The way you did before we went out the first time.The thought of you maybe comeing back to me gets me through my long days with a small smile.Dont crush me again.Dont lead me on for nothing.) (.They say im stupid for going back to you.For admitting id go back to you in a second.But how can i help myslef.) (.I tried telling myself i could not love you.But what else could it be.I tried telling myself i hated you for the things you have done.But i know i could never hate you.) (.If only i could tell you all of this.I loose my words when im around you.Scared i may say something to push you away.) (.Maybe i sound corny just like all the other random girls going on about a boy.But its the way i feel.Theres no helping it.)