"(.What.If.I.never.lost.you. .I.wouldnt.have.to.find.you.all.over.and.over. (.over.and.over.) .Your.the.one.Ive.Ive.always.wanted. .The.one.that.I.just.cant.live.without.)" (.I just got back from playing pickup hockey.that was fun.apparently im "good for being a girl."I played good today.To bad i cant do that during my games.There was a buncha people there.Kim n amanda decided to leave.i stuck around anyway.Hope there is some more tomorrow.Gives me something to do.Becuase my team doesnt start back up for another week.) (.Im all alone at home.My mom is snowed out at a friends house.Its crazy outside.I looked out the window and couldnt even see the road.Its snowing that hard.I was suposed to go shopping today.Dont think thats happening anymore.) (.Yesterday.Well my mom phoned one of my friends.She thinks im depressed.So she got her to get me out.So what if i stay in my room lots.Its not becuz of depression.Maybe im not all that happy right now.But being in my room.Listening to music gets my mind off of things.Plus i have my computer and tv in here.Why would i need to leave.) (.Before i moved here.I had a great life.Tons of friends.I was outgoing.Talked lots.Now that im here.Well i hate it.Ive become shy.If you knew me before ud think that wouldnt be possible.I used to get into alot of trouble at school.Not for serious things.I dont think ive got in shit once here.This summer i was a hardcore pot smoker.Thanks shaun.Ive quit that.Havent done it since august.But wow sometimes i think i need it so bad.Nah.) (.But shit had to happen.Had to move here.And i fuking hate him for it.Yes theres a long ass story behind it.I guess its kinda a good thing.Im in the same town as my dad now.Cuz ontario to quebec.Didnt get to see him lots.) (.anyway my speakers blew.So i have no music.Ahhh im mad.I hope we go tomorrow.Cuz ill buy somemore.I cant live without it.) (.keep.it.real.)