"(.You.make.me.smile.so.wide. .When.I.look.into.your.eyes. .And.when.you're.not.around. .You.know.you're.somewhere.stuck.inside.my. .mind.)" (.i got to see him today.wow its like everytime i see him i fall even more.i want him back so bad it hurts.now that school is back in.im going to be able to spend more time with him.but if it comes to him not feeling the same way its going to kill me.hes all i want.all ive ever wanted.i catch him looking at me when i turn my head.theres something still tere.it makes me smile to be around him.only time lately its a true smile.) (.Well im through with amanda.fuk her.untill she starts being who she used to be i want nothing to do with her.i cant beleive the person she is turning into.i mean shes a hipacrit(sp?).When i was with marty she would talk about me n him all the time.now shes going for at least 5 different 24-25 year olds.ive learnt my lesson.what is this place turning into.) (.kayla wanted to commit yesterday night.that was pretty hard on me.i mean shes the kind of person im close to but dont hang out with that much.but ya know it still gets to you.i made her promise me she would not hurt herself in anyway.ive seen the cuts on her arms.) (.but hm.nothing else to talk about.joey is still "Stalking me". 5 emails in one day.how bad is that.leave me alone.ur scaring me.) (.keep.it.real.)