I feel bad for my friend Sara, she doesn't deserve all of the shit that she has to put up with and ... I just wish that every now and then i could actually open up to her and let her know how much i really care for her and how much she has helped me over the years... But why would i do something like that... i'm way too selfish and shit... i just need a break from reality, it's closing in on me again... I am feeling better though, some friends are over and even though they aren't my best of friends they're still good friends and i care about them... I wish that we could go somewhere or something though... we're kind of stuck here at the moment but that's ok for now i guess, we could always go for a walk or something again like we did last night, that was cool... I sent a little too much time thinking though... Anyways, i'm outtie for now...