flowers? for me? you shouldnt have... but he did. does he not know that i am relationship-phobic, and feel as if i am incapable of loving another human being but just want a rich dude who can buy me things i cant afford? well, according to the newest "Allure" i am...i hate it when those fucking magazines are so right on, but anyways i am spending my last night of 2004 downloading Kazaa wich is going to allow me to steal all the music my little heart desires. muhahaha so this break for me has really been a "free sample" of what someday my life will be. yeah dont u wish you knew what i was talking about? except for maybe not cuz i dont know if anyone reads this anymore. and maybe that is why i hardly write in it anymore? i smell patheticness-do u? your acceptance, though it would thrill me, will not define who i am after all, i am my mothers daughter that line shot through my heart like a bullet. i wish someone could understand.