i wanna drown my sorrow, no tomorrow. today i ate so much. guess whos feeling self consious. meh. i have to say that i love my friends. i do. i do! all of them, they are all so great in their own little ways. no one is like the other. yay for friends. this is for you, when we were talking today, you made me realize that i am niether of those things. (the things that i was) and it makes me sad (worried?) because im so inbetween. before i was either at one extreme or the next, and now im nothing. so often do i have to check and make sure im still alive, ive become immune to the world and its emotions. i just dont know wut to think of it all. im dwindiling in this indecisivness. meekly dipping my toes in hypocrisy...if you're gunna get wet, might as well go swimming. but how long before i drown? ////i adore you penny so i would help you if you told me what you needed help with tell me ur favorite drug and i'll tell you my favorite book what am i to you? is what i think everytime i say your name. comment to that.