well.. i'm not really sure what to write in this one... basicly i just really don't want to lose my entrys lol. I met a guy awhile back. His name is Steve and he's so nice. I can't find a single thing wrong with him. He's so perfect for me. I mean, he's kinda wierd, and silly, and laid back, and makes so mny muistakes when he tries to say something sweet. But thats what i love about him. I still can't get over the way he makes me feel. I just completely melt when i'm with him. I don't even know how to explain it. But i really hope this feeling never fades away. write again someday... ♥

well... I really want to keep all these entrys, so i'm writting a quick little entry about summer lol. Summer school sucks and i hate it. I haven't talked to dan since finals except for the occasional "why the fuck did you say this about me" thing. I'm in so much need of a job. I've applied like everywhere and it sucks. I wish some place would just call me back ugh. I've hung out with brittany a few times, gosh i love her lol. Everytime we hang out we have a good time. Hmmm well idk what else to say, maybe write again.... bye

well i felt like writting in this one, because i don't want my entry's to go away... and yea i just felt like writting in the one but, i just got done watching The Notebook, thats like the 4th time i've seen it and it still makes me get tears in my eyes so i'm in kind of a sad mood now... i'm bored, and i'll write some other time goodbye

alright, well i just thought of soemthing today i broke my first promise ever to dan... yep.. i promised him i would always be there for him, and that there is no way i oculd live without him and you know what. i can't live without him, on friday night... my soul died... for heart cried for him. and i gave him up on my own it was my choice not his. i know he had thought about us not talking, but he said it would be too hard, and look at me now. i'm so torn apart inside... that it even hurts too much to cry i try to tell my self this is a good thing, but my heart says its not, my soul can't live without his smile, and his voice. yet my mind is the stupid one... ...i have to go now... i'm getting really upset don't you think its stupid, how sometimes i just sit by the phone. wishing he would call. hoping that he would say he needs me. but that call never comes, that IM never pops up on my computer... its funny, how the only thing i ever get my hopes up for are him, yet he's the only thing that shoot me down

...a goodbye sweetheart -Y- alright... well since most of this diary is all dan, i'm starting a new one... i haven't figured out a good name though, so yea as soon as i make one, i'll let you all know ...i am trying my hardest to do this :( edit... new diary name belovedxsecret

school was alright, i hate Bio. Had late detenation and it sucked... i got my english essay almost done though, so thats good Then went to the mall with dan. He picked out outfits for me and i tried them on : i looked very good if i do say so myself. Excepti had like no money, so it blew that, lol. Dan bought me The Notebook :) and idk, we just had a really good time Dropped dan off, and drove home Well now i'm gunna go, so i'll wrote tomorrow night

welll... today was gay cuz our school is retarted i really want to wear something cute tomorrow, i just don't know what. But yea, anywayz i just got home from work, and i felt like writting, i'm talking to dan. He said i'm a bitch and if i bitch at him about one more thing, then he's done talking to me for awhile. It's funny how people change you know? I used to be the person who knew him best, and who understood him and trusted him more then anybody, And now im just another stupid bitch in his life... oh well... i'll change bakc :/ i hope on a better note i got to go home early because PK (my manager) spilled wine on Jose's shirt.. lol but i'm reeally tired night

yea.. my day was alright, woke up really ealry after working till 11:45 last night... had to work at my brothers soccer game at the consesion stand thing.... then came home got ready, and james took me out to see Amityvile horror.... wow, he's wicked ugly, and he was being a duick the entire night. I saw his house, big and gorgeous. But he's a fucking asshole The movie was really good though :) i like it alot. i think one of the things that makes it even more scary, is that its actually a ture story. Nothing made up... kinda freaky buuuuut, all in all i guess it was a good night, just because of the movie write later

i went to dans yesterday, and dan was locked out of his house, and yea.. i mighthave been stupid? but i was in a really good mod and he was pissed off... and i thought maybe mitch was home and like sleeping or something, idk.... so then, he got in his wondow and yea... he was pissed off and like slamming shit around, and then ryan came over, and dan was even more mad about somehting, i guess because he was locked out of his house.... and so i was lke whats wrong wiht you? and dan was like are you fucking serious? and i was like idfk... so we fought because i didn't know he was that mad about getting locked out of his house... so i was only there for an hour, and fought with dan the whole time, nice to see ryan though... and then last night he went to the mal, and it was 4hours later, and he was still mad so i thought something else happend so i was like whats wrong with you now, and he's like wow, same fuckingt hing... and i was like why? and then he called me stupid... this morning, he was upset again, i guess the same thing? so i thought maybe something else hapend again, like maybe a fght with his dad, so i was like are you ok? and he's like are you fucking serious... and now his away: I fuckin' Cant stand people that LACK common sense... seriously.. Me: Im Locked Out Of my House. Other Person who is a fuckin moron: Your Locked Out Of Your House?? Me:... Other: Is There Any One Home?? Me: Are You Fuckin Serious?? I Fuckin' Hate Stupid People.. uh huh.. that was me, the other person, yea... this is the samething he did to tiffany, he was an asshole to her after they broke up, and he lost her... hey ass, you wanna loose me too? keep being a fucking asshole...

going to shadowbrook today and selling brittany's couch ;) talked to dan like 10 mins ago, and yea... i guess he feels like shit and can't stop thinking about me?.... alright i should probly take a shower now because i told my mom i would be there between 10 and 11 and its 10:26 right now, and i still have to call my grandma to pick me up. oops well i'll write more later, and i changed my layout, its not really me, and cute in its own way... i just wanted something besides black and white... later edit... its like 11:43 haha, and still haven't called my grmma... and i made another new layout... and yeai think i like the other one better, but this one is the notebook, and i'm like obsessed with that movie... later

its over... our 1 month... and we broke up... gunna go to sleep now... later

it is 11:41 and i just fet like writting, i saw dan yesterday and today. it was fun, yesterday we watched moies at his house all day untill his mom brought me home. and then today we rented The Notebook, and i bought him i, robot... both really good movies, i was laying on dans lap,when we were watching the notebook. and i looked up at him, and he was like crying. he's so cute, we like played all day long, like just laughed and had fun. it was nice... i won't see him tomorrow, and i probly won't get to talk to him untill 7:30, cuz thats when i'm aloud on the phone... 7:30 to 8:00. but yea i think i'm gunna go now, because i'm really tired i love you daniel wayne :-*

welll i just thoughti'd write a quick entry... yesterday went to dans house, i love him, i really do... read the comment from britt..yea i really don't feel like writting in here anymore, i find it pointless now.. i might write every now and then, but i'm not really sure, most of the memories in this thing are bad anywayz... but i'll write sometime later

welll i thought this stupid drama was over untill i got home and saw the comment from kara... uhm wow? and to everyone w.e. talk shit about me, but keeping this stupid drama going saying shit on diary's and leaving me comments, just wow... can't we all just drop it and stop the stupid bullshit that nobody needs i am happy with dan, and he is happy with me, and the only reason he was nicer to you ashley is because you weren't saying shit to him about kara, and filrt with him online all the time... only reason.. soo yea i think i'm gunna go i'll write more later probly

started out shitty, fighting with my mom went to school and saw dan :) i miss him i guess i'm a whore now... i had sex with one guy wow... same as you, except i'm not i'm brith control and lets see... i don't think i'm tough shit, i'm just trying really hard to ignore everything thats going on right now, its bad enough i lost my bestfriend over like nothing, but to have all this drama going on, i mean seriously, what are we 5? yea, thats all i'm gunna say, i don't want to start more shit... ...later

wow, i'm feeling kind of irrated so i felt the need to write i'm still not friends with brittany, i don't even think i want to be anymore.... she's different, she's been different i don't even know how to explain it... Ashley i guess also hates me? why i have no idea... and Kara... thinks i need to grow up haha, i think its immature to leave really gay comments on a person's diary calling them a cunt... i didn't do shit to her and i didn't talk shit about her.sooo who needs to grow up? i was having a really good day actually, untill i got that shit on my diary, now if i was talking shit about you... i would have said from a stupid fucking bitch... ya know, like you do me, and probly britt and ashley too... so i'm the one who's starting drama? yea, i'm just trying to ignore when all of you, are bitching at me... yea later

got home from my second day of work (wich by the way is Number 5, resturant) like 30 mins ago, so i'm really tired, and my fucking boss is a dumbass... i just love girls who think i "steal" there fucking man, when for one, he wasn't even hers, and for another, he broke up with for a reason... yea he's dating me because he wants me and not you, so get used to it :) well, i'm talking to dan and then going to sleep i'm so tired... goodnight

fucking wow rushed out of my house, forgot my lunch money... talked to brittany first time all week and wow, was it even talking? idk i flirt with anthony though, and dan flirts with ashley... oh yes thats terrible, too bad its not true. So yea, i guess things between dan and tony are going bad too... This will all pass even if me and britt never talk again, i'll get over, it seems like she already has... so it shouldn't be that hard for me too right? yep so anywaz, thought i was going to be going to the mall with dan untill 6 but his parents said no, i got to go to shadowbrook till 3:30 though, so at least i got to see him... bought my uniform for my first day of work tomorrow :) oh yes, me work :) soo yea, i have to wear a boe tie haha soo yea, write more some other time... later

well, today kinda sucked Dan's mad at me because i bitched at him last night, i'm sorry i really am... and then today i talked to brittany, about probly the worst thing we could talk about at this moment, and yyeeaa... I don't hate ashley, i'm not mad at her, and don't think its her fault, i am so fucking sorry, if that is a problem for britt. But she didn't handle things very welll in the past, yes in the past, but same fucking thing I was fighting with her, mom being stupid... And i just didn't want to talk about it anymore, I was getting really upset and it doesn't even seem like we are freinds anymore, it just doesn't. I can't tell her shit, we don't luagh, i just idk. But with ashley, i guess i am jealous or soemthing, she is now close to the person i used to be bestfriends with, i mean i know no1 was like hmm how about ashley and britt get close and leave stephanie with no1. But thats what happend... And for awhile, i thought ashley was going to have my "bestfriend" and my love, but he's mine, just not completely i guess... but i'm sorry i have to go now, i guess we're going out to dinner? great... i'll write tomorrow i guess ... i love you :(

wow... worst day of the week Past few days have been amazing, no fighting, only laughs and smiles... Then last night i find out some news about dan, and well, that really kinda made me upset, but its ok, it really is ok... those things happen ...and then dan thinks i'm going to cheat on him, and i would never do that to him, i don't even like eddie... so i wish he would stop thinking about it and now my dad is screaming at me for "downloading" shit on the computer, i haven't even been on it only 3 times, and all i did was diary and AIM... so this is fucking cool Dan is at his grammas, idk when he's gunna get back, i haven't really talked to brittany all spring break... i tried calling her like 2 times today and no1 picked up sooo, my bet is that she is out with tony or ashley... ha! thats great... anywayz, i'll probly write more tomorrow, my computer will be hooked up and on internet at the new house, and thats where i'll be... so yea later