so i decided ti delete my other entry, not just because it seemed fake-ish of how i am feeling, but because it made me seem happy. Not that im not happy, and im tired of everyone making such a big deal over valentines day. The one day where 7 out of 10 people aren't happy. I didn't have a perticualy wonderful morning, but my day wasn't bad, not to mention that i can not have my valentine (i do have one, but yet he isn't really mine)so it was kinda depressing. i'll live though. i told ash about my plans and she thinks im totally crazy and will fall out of this stage that im in. and i might (whihc scares me) but i would be soo happy if it worked out. she said she will be there even if i decided to choose him, whether she likes it or not. and i do like him. end.