i found a quote that said something along the lines of this : those who are faithless know the joy of love. those who are faithful know the pain of love. i just feel like crap... i don't know what to do. i don't know if i should be worried, sad, angry, etc... i used to be such a strong person. and then i fell in love. i feel i've made myself so vulnerable to him that any kind of mistreat or bad word hurts me like no one else can hurt me i've become this pathetic excuse of a person. hanging on his every damn word and action. it's sad what love has turned me into. i feel like i've cheated everyone being with him. i miss my buds...i miss life before him. but i can't imagine life without him, he is my heart, as cliched as that sounds. i feel like i can't say good-bye to him. like i am bound to him. i guess i subconsciously feel i can't do any better. I'm pretty sure i can do better, but he seems so perfect for me. my family loves him, i love his, and i wouldn't be able to just say it's over. not after almost 2 years of loving him and professing my undying love to him. he means everything to me.