I might be distancing myself because I know I have to leave. I know I have to leave. But your lack of responsibility is hard on me. And you with the responsibility and the wit, I am still outside of you. I don't have a special bond with anyone except my cat. It's saddening now, but I know in the future this could change. College. Adult life. It seemed so far away and now it's so soon. So I've begun saving. Working more. Doing homework more. Staying home. Being with my parents. I might be ready for it when it comes. My eye twitches everyday. A lot everyday. It is right now, it was half an hour ago, and it was an hour before that. Everyday I feel it cringe inward and outward. Over and over. I don't understand why nor do I know how to stop it. It makes me think I should see my therapist but she's never any help.