I went to Church today. I thought it was cool. The first time i went and i saw styven i thought he was the most becautiful boy i had ever seen. now.. well.. after several "hints" of i-will-never-like-you-back, he is whatever to me. I just think Love is not for me. I know, I know, it sounds so cliche "Love is not for me" but really....i think i havent met the guy who will feel like im the prettiest girl for him.. i just dont think anyone can fall in love with me, u know? I have had a really peculiar love life. Before though, it wasn't that bad. I had no problem finding a boyfriend. But now its different. I am different. shouldnt i be "prettier" since im not 16 anymore, but 18? i dont know... nowadays the concept of beauty is pretty messed up. A girl needs to be like a D cup to be acceptable lol. and girls are sooooo manufactured.. its not funny anymore. I think, people should stick to the old fashioned beauty. A girl with brains, a nice personality, and the capability to distinguish between Suspense and terror movies.

who knows..