soo kelly were FAT and thats all i have to say about that! lol hmm for some reason i am not writing inthis thing as much as i used to.. i always get on here and want to write so much yet i feel like i cant because i feel like i have so mucht ohide.. even tho i dont want to hide it anymore and im sort of starting not to.. i still feel like i need to.. maybe im just weird? i dont know.. we'll see what happens --------------------------------------------------- i dont want to fall to pieces i just wanna sit n stare at you. i dont wanna talk about it and i dont want a conversation.. ijust wanna cry in front of you. i dont wanna talk about it cuz im in love with you. --------------------------------------------------- you always hear about that one or two people at every highschool that go through something tough.. but u never think it would be you.. when the time comes and you relaize that ur that girl you always said you would never be.. its kind of heart breaking.. but then you hear something and realize that you should feel lucky that you have the oppportunity because there are so many other people who wont ever have it. thats how i feel right now.. but i alwaso have to face the opinions of others who dont even know how tough it is.. all they do i criticize and think of how much of a bad person you are.. i swear the worst things happen to the best people. its so sad that people have to deal with some things so unexpectedly and then have to deal with other people on top of it all. people can be so insensitive. all they do is gossip about something that isnt even any of there business but for some godforsaken reason they feel the need to make it theres. theres so many things i wanna say but so much that i dont at the same time.. im so conflicted with my inner self.. it gets hard a times.. i wish the world wasnt so judgmental.. --------------------------------------------------- you cant jump the tracks were like cars on a cable and lifes like an hourglass glued to the table no one can find the rewind button girls so cradle your head in your hands... and breathe... just breathe theres a light at each end of this tunnel you shout cuz your just as far in as youll ever be out and these mistakes youve made, youll just make them again if you only try turnin around --------------------------------------------------- just remember.. although it may seem like it at times.. god doesnt give you any more than you can handle