Well, I've been grounded since the 10th cos of bad grades. =( Oh well. But I did write each day!! January 10, 2006 Well, today was one of those "I don't give a shit" days. 1st period sucked. 2nd period was blahhhh. 3rd was boring. 4th we watched Shindler's List. 5th went to library took shitty test. Finished test. Tried to leave. Librarian took test cos I was with Brianne & Ari. I skipped lunch with Ari and went to the photography room. 6th period, I did a survey. & talked to Ryan. His middle name is James. =) & I found out that him & Kelly are still going out =( And then Erin always comes over to talk to us...and then I never finish talking to Ryan. I told him about SPAS, and how he's a "panda" & that he's cute (but he doesn't believe that part) Then Mrs. Snyder moved me. :( ...for talking tooo much to Ryan. & 7th period sucked. Then, on the bus, my friend Sean sat with me. And I asked him how much he liked me cos it was wayyy obvious that he does. He was like "on a scale of 1 to 10 I'd say a 9." Which sucks. For him. January 11, 2006 CONVO::: Ryan:Nobody loves me. me:I love you. Ryan:Only in my dreams. :) And he's a VERY honest person, so he's not lying. Anywhos, I gotta see him after 1st and we talked. And then his friend Robert came up && Ryan just kept talking to me...And he waited for me cos I walk slower than he does. :) & During 4th period, while watching that movie, we kept looking at each other. & After history, I went with him up to his locker even tho I had to go to the 1st floor. I really love English (more) now cos I have Ryan there. & I love to talk to him...look at him...smell his hair...yeah. ANOTHER CONVO::: Ryan:I can't wait till summer. me:But then you won't see me till 11th grade. Ryan:I'll have a car by then. I'll come up to see you everyday. me:Promise? Ryan:I promise. Of course it won't happen. January 12, 2006 Well today during History, I sat behind Peter and diagonally from Ryan. && Ryan moved his desk back to sit by me instead of with his friend. Then during English, I asked Mrs. Snyder if I could say "stupider" (cos she has this policy that if you say stupid, you have to write an apology note) And she was like "sounds like an apology note to me" I convinced her out of making me do that...and she made this deal with me. If I didn't talk to Ryan, I wouldn't have to write one...but if I started talking to him, I'd have to write one. Guess what!!! I WROTE ONE! and I got moved. YESTERDAY I was in a shitty mood. Like the whole day. There was a battle of the bands concert last night. I couldn't go. WHY!! Cos I had to be a little fuckhead and work. And all my friends were going. And Ryan mighta been going. And Tommy & his band were playing. And The Foxxy Morons were playing. And after English, Ryan was like "what's wrong?" ...he knows me oh so well...even tho we only met this school year. =( Stupid stupid STUPID work. today: I am finally allowed on the computer. I still haven't called Ryan and he gave me his number....like on Monday. :( Oh well. I have an hour and a half till work. I get my party tip from the 23rd tonight...if I go talk to Joe. I get paid tonight. That's life. Pretty much.