Human should be a mood. It's all I feel now. There is no heart left. No love. No hate. No joy. No Sorrow. No pain. No extacy. Nothing. All emotion has been expelled like a kid smoking pot in school. I don't even feel cold from the absence of the emotions I preached about cherishing only a few hours ago. I'd like to take back the first stament. I'm no longer human...at least not for the time being. I'm certain that in time my emotion will flood back with enough force to cause me to pass out in the heap of blood, bone, and flesh I've become so acustomed to over the years. I don't want them back though. I hate the thought of the hells I've been put through by them. I would rather be alone and comatosed for the rest of my rotten days. I remember a time when I felt love as a wonderous thing that was the greatest feeling a boy could ever expiriance. But no....I know the world around me too well now. This may seem a little irrelevent to what I was saying before but it is a big part. I'm just not up to the task of loving someone who will never love me back. No one dissurves the pain I have gone through with simply learning. I also remember a time when hate was so high in my mind and I was hated as much as I did others. It seems that people still can't except this repulsive bipedal demon of a man in their world. I just can't continue to raise my level of hate to even it out. I feel no fear. I feel no courage. I feel no pride. I feel no regret...