i realized today that in almost any situation i have nothing to say. i am ammusing some what, but genrally if i'm not making an ass out of myself i'm pretty boring. i like to talk to people too, i just am usually either the topic of conversation well at least the butt of a joke or something. it's been that way for ever everyone has always tried to bring me down. i'm really not a horrible sad emo kid in fact i haven't been a kid for some time now. yeah that's a fun topic to deal with, i wish that i could just fit in sometimes. i have had a lot of good stuff happen to me don't get me wrong. it's has always seemed funny to me that i always envied the ones who envy me.