ahh yes they have the mood used i hate that feeling, USED. its horrible really and it sounds rather dirty guess that makes me dirty. i know he thought i was thats why he told me he was drunk, he doesnt remember that night, he doesnt remember what he promised. a friend once said, "only a pussy balmes it on booze" your right he is a pussy, hes also a chicken shit. i have other words for him but i'm trying to keep my composure. I dont wanna sound unlady like, heaven forbid i not be perfect, mother would kill me. stupid bitch! whos she think she is anyways, does the title of mother give her the right to pry into my life? no it doesnt so stay the fuck out! its my life so fuck off!! i hate people! they think they know you, they dont. all my friends, they think they understand me. they dont understand any of it, i have a dead brother, a dead cuzin, 2 dead best friends, a dead gramma. ya you guys really understand what its like to be me, NOT! stop lienig to yourselfs and me i dont appreciate it. you may think it makes me feel better but it doesnt, in fact it makes me feel stupid. so do me a favour, fuck off! i dont mean to be a bitch but you all put on this face, this lie about who you are, your not who you want us to think you are, just like i'm not who i want you to think i am. i tell you im ok, i tell you im fine, but its a lie if you knew me you would understand, im messed up!! but then again whos not these days?