Wow, it amazes he how close minded my friends can be sometimes! I posted something on a forum I belong to, i posted how I could go for some good old fashioned meaningless sex, you know sex for the sake of sex. the reply from a friend was a simple 4 letter work "Slut". So thats what I am to you, a slut? I was then told that apparently I'm addiceted to sex, and I'm too horny and I have no self respect. Well heres what I have to say to you: 1) get used countless times 2) get raped by a guy you trust 3) do even just a small fraction of the things I've done in my past once you have completed these 3 simple tasks, look back on what you did and see if you can respect yourself. Its hard to have self respect when your past makes you sick. best friends are honest, but your a little too honest. I'm not a slut, I just like to have fun sometimes. I know you say your looking out for me because you don't want me to have go thru what robbie did to me again. Just listen to me, I don't hate you for caring, I don't hate you at all, what I hate is that I hate my self. You dont understand, and you never will untill you've had some of my experiences.You don't know what its like to be me and live with my past, its not easy, its not all candy coated. Just understand this, I can barely live with the thought of my past, it haunts, it always will, I cant escape it, and you guys telling me that I have no self respect really doesn't help me.