Since I ended things with my ex I've come to accept the fact that after 8 months its time I move on. I really need to stop wondering if me and him will ever work again, like really, do I want to possably get hurt by him again? Probly not. I also need to accept that I'm going to be alone for a very long time, I'm not gonna be finding a boyfriend anytime soon. It's not that I don't want one, cause I do, it's just that I don't want to get hurt again like I have been so many times before. I mean you can only take so much before your heart shuts down and you stop trusting the male species. I reached my limit along time ago, but it seems to me that I still persistantly find the asshole's in life who do nothing but break your heart. Some people would say that the way I'm thinking is negative, pesamistic, or cynical, but it's not. It's just that I've been through so much in the past 8 months since me and my ex broke up, and its so much I can't handle it anymore. I dont know how to deal with these things in any other way then giving up, I know giving up is the cheep way out, but right now its the quickest and easyest. So for now I'm giving up on finding love, I can learn how to live with being so alone......