WHERE THE DARKNESS MEETS THE LIGHT. "So they told me what happened." "Yeah..." I whispered. I didn't know whether being pregnant was supposed to be a burden. But I pretended it was. "So what are we going to do?" This question that Josh just asked, made my legs feel like the improvement in them had completly dissapeared. "What are you suggesting?" I questioned. He paused. "Do you want it?" "Do you mean..." I articulated. "...abortion?" He finished. I gasped. "No, no.... not an abortion...." "What?! Are you serious?" Josh couldn't believe what was processed through his brain. "Come on we can't have a baby." He complained. He was acting like a baby. It was at that moment I felt like I didn't love him anymore. I had to convince myself that I did. I had to remember the times he made me smile, not the times he ruined me. My mind suddenly turned skeptical. And then I had tears in my eyes. "How could you ever ask me to do something like that?" Josh showed no ounce of sympathy, because he knew he'd get left behind. He wanted all the attention. He wanted Lorraine. He didn't want some inane baby to get in the way. He wanted to live his life with Lorraine first... wanted to marry her... then stay with her, alone... maybe a year or two, before they had a baby. When they were ready. But this wasn't in Josh's plan. He didn't want it this way. I thought he was the most selfish person in the world. Josh suddenly paced over to my bedside and kneeled down, clasping my hands in his, his eyes hopeful. I thought he was going to propose all over again. "Please, please have an abortion." My smile faded. Then I closed my eyes because I didn't want to see him leave the room.